A shot in the dark

So. I have D.I.D. I don’t take on full different personalities with different names and such but I DO disassociate often and only people that live with me or really care about me seem to catch on to it.

I also have BiPolar Disorder with severe manic episodes and schizophrenia.

bow that that’s out of the way …… I have been giving my fiancé a heck of a time. I hear the *** talking. And I hear his phone going off. (Mind you this is a phone he won’t admit he has hidden) and when I eventually see slightly through the fog of all my mental, I SORTA hear how ludacris it sounds. However. If I can see that, why can’t he understand how real this is. How hurt it makes me that he is talking to someone. Or worse. I saw he told some guy how crazy I am. And that hurts my feelings too. It’s not bad enough my reality is jacked up and I rarely feel safe or even close to content. But. The world literally names everything in my brain. As a disorder simply a label stating HEY. SOMETHINGS WRONG WITH HER!!!

and don’t get me started on my sex life. Like. Will it ever be possible to be happy?