Feeling lost

@Tonyk1988  Hello Tony, and thank you for posting on the forums. Life sounds very difficult for you right now - you're coping with delusions of persecution and fears of abuse and further mistreatment from others. Those are tough to cope with in isolation - together they're very compounding. However I also hear a lot of hope in what you've shared here - you want to be better, and you acknowledge that you can't fix everything all at once. You're seeking to improve while being realistic: this is a very measured, rational approach.

You've asked what others would aim for, if they felt that society has turned its back. I feel that you've already begun the process of addressing that question yourself, by reaching out for support on a public forum. It's one way of acknowledging that things can be different for you and it's the initial steps such as these that begin to foster and rebuild a sense of connection. Sometimes we create our own communities and forge our own sense of belonging.

In addition to the forums here, we also have chat rooms for live support, if you feel these would be of benefit. I'm glad that you've found your way here Tony; seeking support is not easy, but this forum is here for you - thank you again for reaching out to us.