Help
Hey.
I'm having a really bad depressive episode. Like really bad. I'm having thoughts about suicide. I've even been googling some things.
Reason why I'm depressed:
My sister just had a baby and I really am happy for her, but it's also the reason I'm depressed. Seeing her so happy made me feel sad for myself. I've always wanted a baby and so I feel envious about this. I really hate that her happiness is making me feel this way. I only want to feel happy for her.
My problem right now is that I have no one to turn to. My mom and my sister are my biggest support, but I can't talk to them because I don't want to bring everyone down. I also don't want to strain our relationship or make my sister feel weird.
I just don't know what to do.
@BlackRosesBloom
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I'm sorry you are struggling!
Please don't give up hope.
Its human to feel jealous and abit sad because you want the same, while also feeling happy for her too.
I'm glad you could come and be honest here, get the rawness of your feelings out!
Its hard when others people seem to easily get whet is out of our reach.
Please be kind to yourself!
You need time to process!
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@BlackRosesBloom ahh it’s refreshing to see this bc everyone is so anti natalist these days. I’ve always wanted to have a kid too 🥲 I feel weird talking about that anywhere bc ppl always dismiss it as stupid or silly