Needing help

For years ive been suffering and the major suspects are bpd bp or just really bad and due to alot of reasons i really cant book therapy or go to it

Ive been very lost and sad and i dont like the current situation where i dont know what is wrong with me so i can deal with it on my own until i can get real therapy

Ive tried everything breathing exercises and everything everyone recommended but its just its so deeply rooted

Until i tried some things that are recommended for people with BPD specifically and some of it worked actually

I just i dont like the fact that i am not professionally diagnosed yet i am really stuck and yeah

Any advices :(?