Learning to cope

Bipolar is a real thing. When you don't know you have it, life is strange. Lots of lost moments. I now know the symptoms. How they feel, even when they are minor. I sometimes see them and I catch myself. I work through them. Self-care and support keeps me together. There used to be a time where I believed myself to be someone important. Today, I strive for normalcy. Its part of the process. To gain control of one's self. Its a must. Bipolar is such a weird word but it makes sense once you know you have it. I live a normal life but I struggle sometimes, like right now. Luckily, I am aware. And for that I am grateful because I can do something about it. It's the anxiety that will trap you and blind you sometimes, and I wonder if other people go through that too. Mental health journeys are intense. I regret what I say sometimes, only because I am aware. I am aware now.