I hate capitalism

I hate myself for not being able to force myself to start working something, anything

I hate my degree even if it’s well paying, everything takes too long to master, every job feels like the death of your soul surrounded with people you’re forced to like and pretend that doing the same thing for 8 hours under stress is normal. Yey I don’t have the self discipline to do freelance either.

Everytime I look into something it would be potentially good, I have this huge aversion as it feels like chewing my own arm. Nothing interests me enough to make it a career that will make me happy

I haven’t had a job since May last year. I tried relearning JavaScript but ended up such an aversion to it, I quit. I used to do 3d art but that job *** sucked, was badly paid and dead end. I feel like no matter what I will choose everyone will just judge me for not working in my degree.

I have given up. I miss being a kid before I started school at all. I feared becoming an adult, before I had all these expectations of me and the constant stress of everything killed me internally