Time to Resign?
So, I haven't been working since August of this year, due to a loss of someone in my extended family. As I am grieving during this time, I've been seeing a counsellor, joined a Grief Group Support hosted in a Church, and checking in with my GP on a monthly basis.
For those who have not been seeing my previous posts about work, here is a brief description:
I work in a local hospital, in a position called OR Aide (Operating Room). I'm not a nurse, but my tasks revolve around nurses, anesthesiologists, surgeons and patients. I have been working as a Casual (meaning, I only have work when others on my team are on vacation) for the past 4 years. People on my team have also caused trouble for me, complaining of my work ethics. When I believe I'm already working beyond what is required. So, it makes me feel like they are just teasing/bullying me for fun.
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During my time away from work, grieving, I have changed my views in life and I feel that a career change is needed. Also, because with the grief, it comes in waves, depending on if I encounter a trigger.. I had felt over the past month, my emotions had been on a bit of roller coaster ride and it will continue to be like this. Working at the Hospital, there are expectations, and in my current state, I honestly don't know when I will be ready to take on my job again. So, thoughts of resigning has been lingering.
My brother and I started our own online business last summer, although with the grief, I haven't really done much with it. But, if I do plan to resign from the Hospital, I will be putting all my effort and time to make it succeed. Ever since the loss, my mind has been non-functional, with short-term memory losses, and not being about to think. As most days, it's just brain fog, or like it has shutdown. So, working at the Hospital with the tasks that is required from me, I may not work as productive and efficient.
I will need to decide before the New Year.. as that is when I said I'll contact my Manager again.
@Jaeteuk
hey, im really sorry to hear that, grief is just...wow, right? It hits out of nowhere and your brain just goes "nope". i know it doesn't change much, but im sending warm thoughts your way. i hope you find your way through this. wishing you a Merry Christmas (if you celebrate) and a HappyNew Year in advance😊
Thank you, @healingsoul4892
Yesterday, I finally had a discussion with my mum.. as she has gathered the thoughts from both my dad and brother, on my decision to resign.. Long story short, they want me to continue to work, and possibly look for a part-time position at a different hospital.. Then, have our own business as a side job because it's not at a point where I can quit regular paid job, and just focus on that.. So, I think when I see my GP again in 3 weeks, I'll get her to help me make up a doctor's note, so I can do a gradual return.. I'd like to start off with 1-2 days a week.. but not in consecutive days. While I look at job openings at other hospitals.. (my parents are willing to give me a ride, if it's far).. The current hospital I work at is like only a 5 minute drive away..
@Jaeteuk
im glad to hear you've talked things through with your family. Just wondering though, do you feel this path aligns with what you truly want for yourself or is it more about what they want for you? i totally understand if this isn't something you want to get into. I just thought you should remember to take good care of yourself in all of this. hope everythign starts feeling a little less overwhelming soon😊
It was good to have heard my family's perspective and I think it makes sense. So, that's why I'm thinking, if I were to return to work in the New Year, I'll request to work only 1-2 days a week, not consecutively, and use the other days to work on the side job. I'm hoping to reach success before my two colleagues retire or is able to quit shortly after they've retired. So, I have about 2 years to build up my side business.
There was a sudden death in my extended family a few days ago. But my Uncle's family is not holding a traditional funeral ceremony, so my dad doesn't have to go back to send him off. But my mum and I will return to our home country for a week so I can visit my Grandma at her grave (get some closure), then we will fly to Japan to meet up with the rest of my family for vacation.
@healingsoul4892
@Jaeteuk
wow, thanks for the update! Honestly, it sounds like you've been juggling a lot and im glad you could talk it out with your family, sometimes just saying things out loud makes it all feel...i don't know, a bit less tangled? the whole "1-2 days a week" thing sounds smart, like easing back into work without totally overwhelming yourself. And oh, visiting your grandam's grave, i can imagine how much that could mean right now. sending the best your way for both the business and the work stuff