I am waiting for this year to get better otherwise, I am gonna quit.

This year, I found out I got cheated on by my partner of 11 years who consistently lied to me and left me for someone else, I have a chronic disease that i just recently made manigable, I graduated college but the only reason for that was I wanted to start of family with them. I have no money, and I honestly am just tired of fighting for people I care about to care about me. I am tired of being hurt and left abandoned and I am sick and tired of this universe fucking me over. I'm just waiting to see if some good comes to change my mind because right now. It's just darkness, bleak and hopeless.