Sm I wanted to share

Hello! My names Rosie and I wanted to share something with everyone just for some support and encouragement. So I’ve had bulimia (an over eating/binge disorder) for around 2 years and I’m currently at the heaviest weight I’ve ever been (151 pounds at 5’1) and I decided to finally get help and start recovering. I’ve never told anyone about my struggle other than my doctor. I’ve always been extremely ashamed of my weight and my body but I’ve never been more ashamed when I stared down at my scale this morning. I sat down on the bathroom floor and sobbed into my hands. I sat up and looked at my body into the mirror and felt guilty and disgusted. That was when I decided it was worse than I thought. I panicked and reached out for support and advice and went away for a bit and now I’m trying my hardest to recover. I have no idea what to do because food has always been my form of comfort and security. A lot of my problem was boredom. Any tips on how to concur of control it? I need all the advice I can get. Tough love wouldn’t hurt either.