hey guys
this is open for anyone who wnats to say something to someone but never get the chance
Please don't walk out without a goodbye at least. Dont go at all, I need U. I'm not ready
Everything has a price. I hope you have the strenght to face the consequences of your narcissistic actions. So, I wish you good luck. You'll need it.
its good to move pn from past
dear C,
i wish i had the courage to confess to you, but you had already began to grow distant. was it something i did? was i being too clingy? i hope i didn’t come off that way. i just wanted to make sure you were safe and taking care of yourself. you always had a hard time remembering.
you made so many promises to me. you promised that we could go to different places together. you promised you’d never leave me. you always said you would be right by my side. and yet you’ve left. whatever i did, i’m sorry. i miss you a lot. i miss staying up late just so we could hangout. i miss seeing the pictures of your dogs. i miss your nickname for me. i miss you. and i just want to say that i loved you. i loved you a lot. no words would ever describe how much i loved you.
thank you for everything.<3
i hope you found your better half
@Anyakn0625
[for that person]
Hey, listen, I didn't mean to leave you, but I was losing myself just to have your love and at some point, I realized that, so I moved on. I told you this many times, but you just couldn't accept that, sorry to trouble you but I want to be myself once again.
@Anyakn0625 peace and happiness
I’m sorry if I made things weird or worse, I didn’t know how fast they would make it a thing and didn’t think through the consequences of it. If I could go back in time and stop myself from saying it to them, I would because I managed to ruin the friendship we had and for that I will forever blame myself. On the bad days when you feel like the world hates you, just know that I will always think the world of you and you will always be loved.
hey its okay to regret but don't hold it for long time its okay to let go and i hope you found peace in lige and found someone you love
@Anyakn0625
To my dad, who I never remember - unfortunately due to mental health tried to slit his throat when I was still in nappies and then disappeared - as much as life moves on, my forgiveness and understanding grows with. I love you x
hey i m sorry to hear what happens to u but still life is meant to forgive and be forgiven hope you have good and peaceful life agead
I hurt you, and you hurt me.
The cycle. The cycle that existed before us. I wish you had stayed with me, Mom. All this time. Underneath all the anger and resentment I felt. It was missing you. You weren't there. I felt jealous and resentful because you seemed to want them and not us. That we didn't matter.
But it's okay, Mom. I'm learning to love me now. In all the ways you couldn't and didn't. All the ways I felt alone, I don't have to anymore. Because I learned that I could be here for me. I never knew that.
I'm learning to let go of the shame. The feelings of inadequacy.
I was scared to try and talk to you about it. You tended to shut things like that down. And how I yelled at you when dad died. All that pent up hurt came out. Because I was trying to pretend I was okay. And you thought that what you did was right and okay, but it hurt me, but I thought you wouldn't hear me.
You felt like they needed you, but Mom, I know the truth. You lied. And you punished someone. And then, it punished us too. Because you left us. You left me. You chose those kids. And they were worthy kids. But. Mom. I was worthy, too. It hurt me so much to feel like I wasn't a priority to you. Or to dad.
But, Mom, I'm going to be okay. I'm not okay today. But I'm going to be. Because I don't have to resent you anymore. I don't want to. What you did hurt me. And I hurt other people with my hurt. Even though I didn't mean to. I grew up thinking I was less than, I wasn't desirable. I wasn't good enough.
But good enough is a lie. It's a myth. There are no good or bad people. Just people. Humans. And we make mistakes. And you made mistakes. I forgive you for the mistakes you made, and I loved you so much. I wanted you so much. I felt like you didn't want me. Didn't care about me.
It doesn't matter now. Because I care about me. I love me. Even if it feels like a lie sometimes. I love me. I love the little girl you left behind, and I love the man I've become and am growing into.
I love me, Mom. I wish you were here to see it. I miss you. I love you. I always did. I always have. And I'm sorry. I could have been a better son.
I hope everyone is doing well today!
@Anyakn0625 All you need is love