Exhausted

I work 12 plus hours a day at my job where we are completely understaffed. Half the staff is not even motivated to do there work making it more work for me. Sometimes I feel like I’m unmotivated myself. The guests are nothing but rude, and entitled. I’m literally been looking for a new job for years now, and can’t find anything. Even paid $300 for someone to rewrite my resume and that doesn’t appear to help. I haven’t had a day off in two weeks. I don’t even have time to order groceries and laundry. To top it off I’m broke. I have no support system. My so called best friends are not even friends. At this point Id consider them acquaintances. My family invalidates me, and makes me feel so powerless. I can’t speak up or stand up for myself most likely from being invalidated all the time, and being a people pleaser. I’m a big chicken. I broke up with my abusive bf who I thought was my soulmate, and hurts beyond belief to know the connection we had was not healthy, but yet he means everything to me. I’m 29 and after being burned so many times I do not ever want to date again. Even though at the end of the day I want a family. I want children. I was hoping to have a children between 24 & 26, and I’m 29 approaching into my 30s which is unfortunately not my ideal age to have kids. I’m tired of crappy friendships. I’m writing this while I’m at work and all I want to do is just go home and cry, but I pretty much live at work. I just need a break. I can’t even get days off. Was going to take a vacation but because of staffing shortages I literally got called back to work. I’m over it all, and I just feel like I’m falling apart. If you read all this thanks for listening to my stupid life problems. At this point I feel like I need a miracle.