Holidays are difficult
With the holidays coming up. My depression has spiked. I keep remembering everything I've lost. Everything that I should've done. Everyone I've ever wronged. People who left. People who hurt me. I don't want to put on a smile but I know I have to. It just hurts.
@Katscrytoo Holidays can definitely be difficult for some people <3 *hugs* Have you thought about doing something to distract you from these thoughts? Some examples might be reading, writing, drawing? <3 I hope things get a little better for you soon
@Rose I do tend to draw. Ive gotten quite fond of drawing pokemon especially mimikyu.
@Katscrytoo Ooh awesome! I love drawing too :3 In fact today, i drew a fox ^-^
@Rose that's cool :)
Every year seems to bring more losses, I guess that's how it goes the older you get. Last year at this time my world was rocked. My brother killed himself on Dec. 19th. Seems like the rest of the family is coming to terms with it and able to get through their grief. I just can't. I know that it's not an option, but I would rather be with him than here.
@RaspberryLemonade66 I'm so sorry to hear that. Ive only ever had one death in my family but I was never close to that person. Just remember that everyone here would miss you if you were gone.
@Katscrytoo
Thank you
@RaspberryLemonade66 :)
One thing Ive found that makes the holidays especially difficult (for me) is just the social expectation to be happy and social and on. And honestly, just being around my family so much. The past few holidays have been so hard and Im terrified, I havent come up with a good plan. I wish there was a place to get away and just relax.
@goldenCucumber1287
I know what you mean. Most of my family doesnt even know I suffer from depression.
Christmas is here and more than anything I just want to be away from people and not have to deal with all the stuff that comes with the season. I just can't enjoy the holidays, it all makes me feel so empty and anxious and I feel like I'm gonna have an internal breakdown again at any given moment but I also don't want to make things difficult for the people around me.
That's a nice thread.
Christmas can be a tough period, especially for those with depression or/and social anxiety. I also wish I wouldn't have to deal with people, I don't ever get in the holiday mood and never seem to feel the Christmas spirit.
I wish you all a safe and peaceful holiday. For those who are forced to spend it with their abusive relatives, just like me, I wish you a safe space and the ability to set boundaries.
p.s. If there were a listener willing to talk about anxiety and depression during Christmas, feelfree to hit me up.
