What do you hate about yourself?
Depression is bizarre in how in alters the way we think. We may know logically that it is our depression making us think this way but knowing that doesn't invalidate it. So write down what exactly you hate about yourself, let it all out. Once you do look back at what you wrote. Hopefully documenting your thought process will make it easier to work through your issues. Plus we will all be here to help.
EVERYTHING. I don't think I should be. My existence is a insult to humanity. Every time I strive to out work, think, preform, anyone. I don't say anything but for a little I pretend I have some value if I can out do someone. Not helping my sisters more when we were young. Doing anything with people. They may start to care about me. Witch is wrong. I will hurt them. I will leave them. I will mess there life up. EVERYTHING.
I know whats wrong, but I cant seem to fix it.
I hate that I keep to myself all the time. I know how bad it is mentally but I'm learning.
I hate that I don't want to live. I hate that I'm in anyone's life. I hate that I have wasted most of my life. I hate that I cant just give all my tomorrow's away. I hate that I have hurt people. I hate the idea of growing old. I hate myself. I hate the cold. I hate my back , knee and hip problems. I hate driving slow. I hate waiting in lines. I hate being broke. I hate dam near everything. I hate.
@Flornhope I understand how you feel. I'm here for you. I'm sure there's more things you don't know that make you special. We usually don't see it but someone always does! Hope you have good night!
@ahoyanita Thank you. For your kind words. I think the most special thing about me is I am a living boil. I am hear to fester , cause pain, scar , and blite. I am to be hated. I have on positive. I am only here to experience suffering.
@Flornhope
Honestly, you are amazing with words. Even with just a couple posts I can see something beautiful about you. Keep being beautiful. The world is better with you in it. (And maybe try writing something! I know I would love to read something written as beautifully as you wrote your posts) We love you
@ouwillbefound Thank you for the encouragement. I an very self conscious of my spelling and grammar. I spell words backwards or gumbled and put them in the wrong order in the sense. I think it I were to write it would end up being similar to Hemingway's style informative to the point and mater of factly. Nobody needs to worry about me I talk but I'm not going on my last adventure anytime soon. Its something I've wanted most of my life but I have waited this long I can wait longer. Thank you again.
Nothing!
There are different things I hate about myself, and thankfully I like myself more than I hate. But, there's one in particular I want to get off my chest
Whenever I go somewhere to talk about things like depression and my thoughts, I get judged. They always say that they're judge-free here, but that's never the case.
I discuss my murderous and violent thoughts, and everyone falls silent. It's like nobody understands (I sound like an edgy teenager but trust me)
I'll share my painful past and very sad and suicidal tendencies, and suddenly nobody speaks. It's like there's a mixture of sympathy and "this guys really depressing can someone get her out of here?" in the air. For this reason, I keep to myself in case I overshare, aaaand I hate myself for bottling up everything because I don't want people to feel uncomfortable. Am I that cold for wanting to kill or spilling out what I've done?
Oh shit, I did it again.
@paintbrush2022
I had (and still have) sort of the same problem. I want, I need, to talk to someone but I can't. So what I did was I created my own person. I gave them a name. And I started to talk to them. I told them the good parts of my day, and I told them the bad. I told them the mundane things, and every horrible thought that goes through my head. I needed a friend, and they became my best friend. I basically created an imaginary friend, which sounds childish, but is really the best thing I've ever done for myself. And you know what's great? They're always there for me. They don't judge anything I say. If you want to know anything else ask me. Or, if you want, I'm here to talk.
At my better days i hate that i don't know how not to hate myslef
I hate that i will never be what my mum wants me to be
I hate that i can't be useful because all things im talented in are considered not useful, productive, because i love art, writing and painting
I really wish i could be different, but im not.
I hate that im considered to selfish and egoistic, when im simply the best i can be. Because i can't change every thing about me, and i dont think i should feel like i have to. Im simply me and not an object of your idea about who i should be and its okay. I really cant be better right now.
I hate that im not what they want me to be, im sorry.
Right now EVERYTHING
I hate everything about myself. Everyone has something they are good at that they can be recognized for. I hate that there's nothing special about me. I hate that I can't be that outgoing and smart person that has their life figured out. I hate that I feel like my life is wasting away and no one appreciates me. I hate that I'm whiny and always complaining.....I hate it all
I hate being naive.
I hate being a introvert.
I hate my big forehead along with my women's 11 shoe size.
@Venus0019
Hi, I'm an introvert too and really hate it. I wish I could just go and talk to people like my friends do. I recommend reading The Fault in Our Stars to realize the benifets of being introverted.
And same for big foreheads! I've always hated mine but have recently gotten bangs, and I love them. Maybe give it a try
:)