What do you hate about yourself?

I have a lot

*I stutter in front of strangers, usually when I'm trying to make a joke

*I spend hours a day watching YouTube, instead of doing productive things

*I fear the future and worry that I will be forgotten

*I have depression

*I have a really really hard time being productive on the weekends. In fact, weekends are when I hate myself the most because I don't have anything to distract me

*I never finish anything

*I never try to get better. I exist in status quo

I'm sure there are more things, but that's all I could think of at the moment

I hate that I am tied down by anxiety.

I hate that I have started to procrastinate

I hate that I still have speech difficulties

I hate aspects of my appearance especially my bad acne.

I hate that I rely on other peoples opinions

I have loads

i hate my depression

i hate my body

my weight

my anxiety

my voice

my face

my scars

my crying face

I hate that I am fat, lazy and unwilling to change. I also hate that I dont make friends and cannot fit in socially.

Trigger Warning: Suicidal thoughts

I hate that after 25 years I'm still in love with my married friend, and that I can't just be satisfied with our continuing friendship and the knowledge that she's happy. I hate that my desire for her is so all-consuming that knowing I'll never be her husband drains all the color and flavor from my life and leaves me feeling like I don't want to be alive any more. And I hate that every time I have an opportunity to spend time with her I feel dread, knowing I'll probably go into a depression spiral afterward, and the entire time I'm with her I'm struggling to keep from staring at her beauty and thinking a mental loop of "She's so beautiful, she's so sexy, I wish we were married, why couldn't she have fallen in love with me?" over and over and over again instead of just enjoying her company and our friendship.

I hate that despite all of my romantic dreams and imagining myself to be a romantic guy, I can't even love my wife the way she deserves to be loved. I hate that I've made her feel like I settled for her, and that my depression exposed my true feelings to her. I hate that I never initiate sex and I avoid it most of the time because I'm not physically attracted to her, I'm worried about my own inability to perform, and my porn addiction has made everything worse. I thought that when I finally got married, I would be the best, most devoted husband of all. But instead I married someone because I wanted to "get over" my unrequited love, and it didn't work. Now I'm not just hurting myself, but I'm hurting my wife as well.

I hate how I look; I used to think I looked fairly handsome, but now I've put on weight and my posture continues to be bad, so when I catch myself in the mirror I see a hunched over pile of fat flesh with a double chin and tiny eyes. If I could just give up soda, eat better, and exercise, I could probably lose a lot of that weight, but I keep giving up and self-medicating with food. I used to enjoy being in pictures; now I can't stand to look at myself and I avoid cameras.

I hate that I'm such a procrastinator and so lazy that I do anything to avoid working on my artwork, and end up missing deadlines. I spent the first part of my life working to become an artist, and now all I ever do is read the internet, play video games and watch YouTube. And I'm so deeply in debt due to student loans for art school that I'll never be free of them. I need to find a job, but I haven't even updated my resume from my last job yet. I hate that I feel like I'm a ball and chain around my hard-working wife's ankle in every way.

I hate that despite the fact that my life is actually pretty good, I have a lot of supportive friends, and so many people are suffering far worse than I ever will - including people on this board! - all I can do some days is curl up in a ball and wish I were dead. I hate that despite all of the things I have going for me, I can't imagine any future for myself and there's nothing I look forward to in life any more. I hate that I'm wasting my life just waiting to die of something.

I hate that I avoid confrontation, so I let people treat me bad, i have a good heart, but noone appreciates it, I am a kind person and would love to be in relationship with someone who loved me!

I lack focus and it's starting to annoy me. Especially when I make schedules and don't follow them. I get devastated and angry at myself when I don't follow the rules and reach goals I've made for myself. Being in a rut is what I fear the most 😢😖😭

I hate not having a job,and being forced to depend on anyone else, besides my self. I have always paid my bills and had good credit, now everything is destroyed! And since that is the case ,I am stuck and hate having no control over anything!

i hate that ive pushed away those who get close to me, but ive been working on that ;P

I hate that I'm such a wimp - how I back out of interviews, dates, social events etc. I wish I could get a grip and have a stronger backbone instead of saying no to everything because I'm scared of failing/making a fool out of myself/taking the wrong path.