What do you hate about yourself?

I'm ugly lmao

My friggin self-pity that makes it feel okay to stay down and do nothing while I'm wallowing in sadness. I hate that I always feel too lazy, too burnt out or too down and tired to chin-up and face my problems even when I Know what i gotta do.

I hate being nothing feeling worthless.

I can't seem to have a proper conversation with someone outside of my family. Even when i work up the courage to try to talk to someone, which may take months until I can, I end up smiling awkwardly throughout the whole conversation and the whole conversation barely takes a minute to finish. I hate how I smile when I talk to others. It's disgusting. I don't mean to smile and I can't seem to lose that smile no matter what i try. It's not a sincere smile either, it's almost a constant reminder of how I hate my social skills. Every time I talk to someone, I can't help being disgusted by how fake I seem, but it doesn't seem like i can control it.

My stubbornness and how insecure I feel.

Maybe, just maybe I don't hate anything about myself. But then I don't see this as being me, I've chnaged the way I look so many times no one can really tell it's me anymore. But then again who am I? A ghost of a girl that once had everything? I felt like I could do anything, go anywhere and see everything I wanted to see in this world. Maybe I hate the fact that I had so many plans for myself and now I can't seem to get a grasp on life. I wanted to write about anything and everything, I wanted to go to places far away and see how everyone else lived. But now I can hardly get ot of bed in the mornings. Maybe I hate the fact that I can never seem to try hard enough, or maybe I hate the fact that I'm a people pleaser and I always find that I am never good enough for the person I'm trying so hard to please. Or maybe, just maybe I hate everything about myself. But then again WHO AM I?

i'm lazy and useless.

J

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Depression