What do you hate about yourself?

Everyday I list everything I hate about myself...

1. Ugly, I am so beyond ugly. What 37 year old gets acne? I am a brown skinned women who faces racism all the time, why couldnt I be born white?

2. I am fat and short

3. I am stupid when it comes to what the general population talks about but I am smart on random stupidness

4. My only purpose is to be a slave

I always considering other feels and forgot my own feeling...and i hate it now....

I hate that Im fragile, sensitive. I get offended and hold grudges so easily. I hate that always play a victim.

I hate that I hold grudges for so long and stop talking to the person as a means of reacting to what was said and done to me.

I hate that I constantly remember every humiliating and painful things I said/did and said/did to me, thus making me so hard to move on, forgive, and forget myself and others.

I hate that I always judge people before I get to know them first. I hate that I cant help think that they think bad things about me or that theyre going to hurt me in any way. So, I dont get along with them instead.

I hate that I always assume every worst thing that could happen when Im face with new challenges and so making me want to give up so easily before I even get started.

I hate that Im aware of everything that is wrong with me and yet I dont do anything about it except I keep doing them.

I hate my physical appearance. All of it.

That it

i hate my stupidty hate my fear's , and especially my fear of people hate being weak and a coward

hate my addictions hate being shy and subborn, terrible combination!

hate my loneliness

i hate to be alone but i hate to be around people more ,

hate i will never be a father or husband

I hate that no one likes me

I hate that I wasted my best years with a fake, hurtful person that no one sees

I hate that I damaged my body providing and receiving nothing in return

I hate a lifetime of toiling to climb a ladder and not being able to reap the rewards

I hate being scared all the time

I hate being a coward

I hate having poor eyesight, poor hearing, and poor tastebuds

I hate not being able to concentrate for more than a minute

I hate myself

I hate that I feel too much, I am an empath and easily absorb what anyone around me is feeling. So I purposefully isolate myself because I'm too weak to risk negative absorption that can cause me to go into long term depression.

I hate that life dealt me shit cards and its taken me over 20 years to crawl myself out of the hole my life caused me in my youth.

I hate that I lack consistency.

I hate that I've never known what it's like for someone to empathize with me.

I hate that my capacity to forgive, support, and love is endless, but I have never experienced that from someone towards myself.

I hate that in order for me to succeed in life I have to change and harden myself which is opposite of the few things I do like about myself.

I hate the choice of having to kill my heart and innocence for survival in order to adapt to this world.

I hate how deep my pain runs.

I hate that no one has ever shown compassion when I've broken down.

I hate that I seek love and approval relentlessly and give it freely but can't be that for myself.

I hate being sexually active

i hate being gay

i hate feeling lonely all the time

i hate that i am not able to deal or bear all the crap in life

i hate my inability to be normal

i hate my look

i hate everything

i hate that im not enough for people or at school

I hate my inability to relate, incapable to do basic things. The constant pressure of my past. How I'm aging overall

I can never seem to get everything done that is expected of me