What do you hate about yourself?
Depression is bizarre in how in alters the way we think. We may know logically that it is our depression making us think this way but knowing that doesn't invalidate it. So write down what exactly you hate about yourself, let it all out. Once you do look back at what you wrote. Hopefully documenting your thought process will make it easier to work through your issues. Plus we will all be here to help.
I hate how much I fail at life I hate no matter how good I apparently look I feel that I look like a trash bag I hate how stupid I can be and ruin everything and that I love
Everything, but especially that I'm stupid.
I hate how fake I seem when Im with other people and how my inability to be myself around others stops me from getting close to them. I hate my intimacy issues, how someone else can really like me, and even if I like them back, I KNOW it wont work out, cause Id be unconfortable and theyd think I was ashamed of them. I hate how boring I must be. I hate how annoying and self-centered I must seem to others. I hate how I complain and I hate how when I try to fit in, I just come across as mean. I hate my jawline and my butt. I hate how I push people away to succeed academically and career-wise in life, and I hate how utterly terrified I am of failure.
The easy answer is everything...
I hate that I cant believe in myself that I cant fight that I cant get up and do it
I hate how I over think every little detail and think about it till I make it such a big issue I explode with all this rage and come out with sometimes hurtful things that aren't true . My partner is always the one on the receiving end but now I've pushed him to far and he's gone and I don't know what to do . So in fact , I hate myself because I caused someone i love pain when they didn't deserve anything ....
I hate that I can be such a huge perfectionist that it controlls my life. I hate my general stupidity in most things [Not only just regular education]. I hate how I worry over the stupidest things, or rather I say overthink everything. What I absolutely hate though is how socially awkward I am. I can never seem to fit in, even with my own family. I hate how much I dwell on my past, when I know I need to let it go. I hate how hopeless the view of my future seems. And lastly, I hate that I hate myself this much.
I hate my nose and my legs. I hate how I make horrible decisions and how I
@cosmicjellyfishqueen I don't hate myself. Other people hate me. Or rather, everybody's life is working out less than they'd like and are looking for a reason why they don't have everything they want. And I've been a lifelong good scapegoat for that stuff. Helping people explain away their life by whatever deficiency they want to find in me. If nobody ever condemned me again, I'd be fine with myself. It's living in fear of the future condemnation and living in shame of the past condemnation that keeps me up at night. But it's not me hating me; it's just me replaying the tape.
I hate that Im paradoxical: I prefer my own company and yet I cant handle anxiety and loneliness when Im alone. I hate that Im unfair: I seek attention, time, support, and understanding from people and yet I dont give. I hate that wherever I am, whatever I do especially when Im in a new place of life, I think of all the bad things about it, and then when things just get a little hard, I quit instantly without even trying hard more. I hate that Im scared of getting hurt that I avoid the risks of trying. I hate that Im cynical and judge people by thinking theyre going to hurt me. I hate that I dont know what I want to do for my life.