What do you hate about yourself?
Depression is bizarre in how in alters the way we think. We may know logically that it is our depression making us think this way but knowing that doesn't invalidate it. So write down what exactly you hate about yourself, let it all out. Once you do look back at what you wrote. Hopefully documenting your thought process will make it easier to work through your issues. Plus we will all be here to help.
I hate how much of a stupid piece of shit I am
I hate pretty much everything about me, everyone keeps saying im a great guy but I just can't see it. I look at myself and see a lazy, unmotivated, loveless, disgusting, bland, creature that people put up with so that the suicide rate doesnt go up. Im sorry if this is too dark for some people, the whole suicide thing, but its real, I just don't see why my friends put up with the emotional wreck of a person I have become. I just wish someone could love me, it doesn't have to be me but just someone, or anything, like a dog or something, I'm just so desperate, I wish I had something that people desired, but no, i have to be ME
I hate the list that I will comeup with. I hate that I care too much. I hate that I love too closely. I hate that I am thin. I hate that I can't feel anything. I hate my hair. I hate the fact that I sometimes can't feel greatful. I hate that I can't say "I love you" to my parents anymore. I hate that I'm a coward. I hate that I can't let go. I hate that I can't even ask to go to the washroom. I hate that the only time I'm 'brave' is when my friends aren't. I hate that my personality revolves around my depression. I hate that I don't feel good enough. I hate that I can't stand up for myself. I hate that I'm a hypocrite. I hate that I lie. I hate feeling nothing. I hate choosing to keep "her". I hate that I hurt myself for stupid reasons. I hate that I can't tell anybody in real life. I hate me. I hate everything about me. I hate my body. I hate my thoughts. I hate my mistakes. I hate all of me.
Sorry you read this it was a waste of time to care. I'm sorry.
@HappyLily291125, Dont feel bad. Every one had tons of things they hate about themselves even if they are everyone else's ideal of perfection. I can't say I love you to my parents and mean it anymore,. I mean, I do, but only because I'm hoping to get love and acceptence back. My heart shatters every time they say I love you, but inside I wonder.... Do they or is it a facade like almost everything else in my life seems to be?
@1CuteCinnamonBabyXoxo
Thanks Cinnamon. When I meant that I can't say I love you anymore to my parents is that. When I try to of feel like saying the words my mouth closes and I can't say it. I just get reminded of all the terrible things that's happened to me and them not knowing it. Sometimes I don't want to say it. I feel guilty about it and hate it.
I hate that I can be too emotional. It makes me feel like a kid.
@integrityblues, remember that being emotional is what makes us human and helps to keep us alive.
@integrityblues, remember that being emotional is what makes us human and helps to keep us alive.
I hate my tiny ugly penis, I hate my face and my body, I hate to be afraid of People, to feel like I'm less than everyone else.
That I'm not an emotionless machine, bc showing emotion and being honest with how I am feeling is why most of my friends avoid me and why my best friends treat me with contempt and it is also what pushed them away :(
That I had the nerve to have romantic feelings for anyone when I clearly had no right or business to.
That my flaws outweigh positives and is why I am going to be alone for the rest of my life.
@lycan9826 if your
I hate almost everything about me. It's a lot to list down.
How much I take things for granted. How much I forget what a small time we have on this earth with our loved ones.
I hate how unimportant I feel. Like how sometimes it doesn't matter that I'm making the right decisions or saying the right things and going through with treatments when in the end it doesn't seem to matter. And I totally didn't mean to sort of quote a Linkin Park song!
I hate my procrastination and my over emotional negative lookout towards prole I'm attached to.
