What do you hate about yourself?
Depression is bizarre in how in alters the way we think. We may know logically that it is our depression making us think this way but knowing that doesn't invalidate it. So write down what exactly you hate about yourself, let it all out. Once you do look back at what you wrote. Hopefully documenting your thought process will make it easier to work through your issues. Plus we will all be here to help.
The conflictions.
The thoughts
The feelings
The uncertainy of what to do
The constant questioning of if it's right or wrong
The differences of boundaries.
The fact that i know so much, but i do so little to change my life 🎆
That I can't stop loving someone who doesn't love me back.
The constant need to please everyone just so they'll like me
I hate myself for loving someone who was mentally abusing me, who I was sceard of and because of who I almost lost my family. I already lost all my friends. I hate the fact that I was doing everything for him and still I let him treat me like shit... I hate the fact that I can't stop thinking about him and loving him so much
I always have a wall up and even when I "let it down" I'm ultimately just faking it. I am constantly performing, I don't know if anyone really knows me and I don't know if I want them to. I don't like myself at all and whenever I try to improve I give up immediately and I hate myself for it.
@dapperGrapefruit6319
I feel the exact same way, and I've never been able to put it onto words but that's how I feel most of the time. Maybe try finding someone and building up your trust with them, then slowly start to put down your guard, but go slow and let yourself take your time. It can be hard to open up and show people who you actually are, but by taking it one baby step at a time, maybe it will help you love yourself a little bit more
How unmotivated I am
How unproductive I am
How messy/lazy I can be
How much I make excuses for myself
How I make my own life even harder than it already is
How socially awkward I am
How scared I can be of people and social environments
How I act like I cant do things on my own, when I can.
How I complain about having no friends but never put myself out there because of fear.
How I worry so much
How I say Im going to change but dont or always revert.
I give up when things are hard
How I dont get excited about anything anymore
@blueGrapes7226
I hate the way I so easily begin to rely one person. How surprised they'd be to learn I needed them more than they the other way round.
@blueGrapes7226 I could have written this!
hope your ok xx
@blueGrapes7226 I hate everything about myself. Mostly that I'm ugly, I have no passions, no motivation, no friends because I have no social skills, my greediness, my obsessiveness, my ungratefulness. I am rude to those who care about me. I only think of myself. I never finish anything I start. I used to have dreams and now I know that they were all stupid.
the way my feelings jump to conclusions, even though its different from what im thinking rationally
how stupid, thoughtless, and careless I can be
i hate how skinny i am, my low muscle mass, how im basically made of just bones and fat and so i still have cellulite
how i care so much about someone who hardly even cares about me
my obsession and attachment to this person, how i stalked them online and collected information about them in the past
how hard it is for me to make new friends, because of how scared i am or how clueless i am or just how picky i am about the people i want to talk to and get along with.
i hate the way i imagine a happy future for myself, thinking of things that will never happen, friends i will never have
how talentless i am, how my interests arent useful to me career-wise or socially
how quickly i lose interest or how intense i can feel in one moment and have it be gone the next
how sometimes i say mean things to my partner because im frustrated and their mistakes just send me over the edge
how i forget things so often and its hard for me to focus
my aimlessness, my lack of higher goals, how im dropping out of school even though everyones telling me not to
In my head I say so much, but I never have the courage to speak a word of it.
I hate that I am so jealous of others and I cant keep a relationship going long term. I hate myself for so many resentments and for ruining my life.
What do I hate about myself?
Have you wondered why I never look into a mirror or reflection? It has nothing to do about my looks...I simply can't stand to see those empty eyes devoid of life and will and passion, devoid of anything, I do not want those deep hollow eyes to stare back at me...
Otherwise I can write a detailed minute enciclopeadia why I hate myself...and a dictionary too😉😊