What do you hate about yourself?
Depression is bizarre in how in alters the way we think. We may know logically that it is our depression making us think this way but knowing that doesn't invalidate it. So write down what exactly you hate about yourself, let it all out. Once you do look back at what you wrote. Hopefully documenting your thought process will make it easier to work through your issues. Plus we will all be here to help.
Do you have all day? I hate that I only have a GED although I am highly intelligent (not bragging) and that I'm an emotional hurricane which totally destroys the aforementioned intelligence. I can't have children which makes me half a woman, I'm overweight, ugly, the black sheep, pathetic person everyone in the family feels sorry for and looks down on. I don't have their perfect houses, perfect children and apparently PERFECT little lives. I hate everything about me. Everything. I was never good enough and never will be.
@HjoyC2372 I know how you feel, the huge lack of self esteem. Atleast you know your issues, now start working on them, try to get out of the black hole. You are not alone. Start doing daily routines, see if it helps. Some people overeat when depressed, what you need is a diet that gives you results. I did my weight loss journey and now i feel great and easier to accept myself. Im done dieting now but if i ever want to go down in weight again, its not a problem for me anymore. Little things as that gives me a huge boost. Maybe you are intelligent but maybe you need more knowledge? Some books about life? About how you can improve yourself, realizing that you are special, you are a fighter that was deeply depressed and all suddenly you know alot of things nobody else does. THAT is what matters to me. Teaching things very few people do.
Going from being the one overweight, bullied, never good grades because of things at home. The feeling of never being included because im spending way to much time analyzing and overthinking instead of speaking.
Now im growing and having my final hope of developing. Daily routines + Doing my hobbies since i dont have friends. Yes thats me. So far, i love seeing how everything im studying in secret, works for me!
@HjoyC2372 the thing that I hate most about myself if I get confrontational over things I can't control and I never feel good enough. I always have to do better even if what I am doing is good, or even if I'm doing excellent.
I hate how I just keep wasting my life because of my fears, anxiety, and depression. I have nkt evolved, or changed for the better. Other people around me are moving on with their lives and I am standing still. Its same ole same ole.
I'm poor. I'm poor and I had to wait over an hour in line at my local food bank only to be told that I should have not stood in the handicapped line that I'd been directed to if I was going to go downstairs myself to fetch the food like I did during my last visit.
The man who directed me to that line was the same one who told me I'd have to wait even longer as the really handicapped people would have to be serviced first. I had to explain that yes, I'm handicapped. Look at my cane, do you see how much worse my balance has gotten since I've been patiently standing in front of this wall I couldn't lean against since it's covered in shit and garbage? How about the fact that I've been clutching my shoulder off and on since I've been here and look like I'm about to cry? I was eventually offered a crate to sit on since it was unclear how long it would take for me to get my turn, but at the time I declined it because I wasn't sure if I was going to stay long enough for the kind act to become a waste of someone other person's time and energy.
I eventually got in, got food, and left. But before I did I walked up to the man who ruined my morning and told him that next time I was going to let him go down to get my food for me since this entire experience was more stressful than necessary. I'd initially offered to go down the stairs myself because I thought I was doing this guy a favor after all the heavy lifting he'd done for the last three disabled people who brought huge bags to fill!
Fuck being kind to others, I've wasted every last bit of my kindness today.
@integrityblues i think you're entitled to feel that way haha. I'm sorry <3
I hate myself when I binge eat. I wish I could just stop and sometimes want to give up. Feel like crying and doesn't matter anymore.
@dancinggirl2 hey you can set your mind and lose wheight if you really want trust yourself girl anything is possible as long as you breath
@Cosmichorizon, thank you.
@dancinggirl2 you are welcome miss
I hate how i cant remeber anything about myself.
Everything...
I hate that Im so emotionally disconnected that its extremely hard for me to form a real bond with anyone or make any kind of relationship, I hate that I am extremely quick to anger and hurt others when I do get angry. I hate that I can never get a grip on my emotions and can be ok one second but very not ok the next. I hate that I can get over past traumas like death, breakups, or losing friends. I hate that I never let anyone get close enough to help me and when someone is close to me I ruin it every time. I hate that I constantly feel so alone but I am always the one to blame for being alone. I hate that theres so much more to hate about myself than like that I cant even name a single thing I do like about myself.
@NickM12 I feel just the same...I feel blank...
Probably less if I say what I like about myself...my eyes are green and that's my favorite color. I like that even thou I don't like my thickness, that God gave me an hourglass figure, I just need to get back down to be able to show it in detail. I don't like my overthinking everything female brain. I wish I wasn't so clingy, because that tends to chase people away. Idk what else to say, but it's cold and I need to go in and get warm and try to get more than 2 hours sleep tonight. Night y'all!
@12345678aabbccc hey sleep well night
I hate that i have been hurting everyone who loves me...Once my fears take over...i have no sense of seeing reason..I say a lot of spiteful things...My anger takes over and I end up hurting myself which in turn hurts the ones I love..I want to go back to being the girl who everyone love..who made everyone around her happy..these days it only feels like i am spreading sadness and anger all around me...I hate that the man who I love more than anyone else in this world...I only wished happiness for him yet i am solely responsible for his pain...
@gentleBirch7351
How are you responsible for their pain?
I am responsible for the pain of my family members because I constantly am fighting with them by going against their wish and saying a lot of mean stuff..i am responsible for the pain of the man i love because i am not in a state of mind that i can trust anyone at all..i am kinda getting paranoid and i keep picking fights with him despite him not doing anything
I hate my lack of faith in others and my need to for complete privacy and trust that I haven't always extended to others. I hate that my mood and other things going on in my life can affect how I react to people. I hate that some of my self confidence is based externally on what I am accomplishing or how I relate to people-- but luckily, that's not a complete fact. I hate that I have such low energy or desire to do things, followed by random bursts of emotion that leave me exhausted and sad. I hate that I usually cave to the needs of others before my own, which creates resentment in me. I hate that I take everything to the maximum level. I hate that I really don't trust the universe and that feeling has manifested so strongly that its hard for me to dig up the faith and fire that I used to have. I hate that I feel the need to prove that I deserve to feel the way that I do. I hate that it's difficult for me to hide how I feel and this creates difficulty in relationships with people who think I'm crying out for attention or controlling them.