What do you hate about yourself?
Depression is bizarre in how in alters the way we think. We may know logically that it is our depression making us think this way but knowing that doesn't invalidate it. So write down what exactly you hate about yourself, let it all out. Once you do look back at what you wrote. Hopefully documenting your thought process will make it easier to work through your issues. Plus we will all be here to help.
I hate how I keep apologizing to people whenever I don
@AikaAmai I hate how Im always sorry. I hate how I let people walk over me. I hate the way I look, the way I act. I hate waking up in a society full of standards, technology and stereotypes. I hate the way people can change me and I lose yourself. I hate the way I struggle to let people go who dont want anything to do with me. I hate myself for over thinking about the past; the past mistakes, family, lies. I hate myself for not talking to anyone sooner and letting it get this bad. I hate myself for not looking into my sisters school more because she was being bullied. I hate the way I allow myself to get bullied. I hate how weak I am. I hate having to lie to people so much about myself. I hate that I dont ‘fit in or I havent ‘found the right crowd. I hate that Im not perfect. I hate that dont look anything like my other friends. I hate myself for not being good enough. I hate myself for now allowing people to help me when I needed it. I hate myself for faking a smile every day. I hate myself for thinking these though, feeling the way I do. I hate myself for my hobbies, the way I dont feel perfect at them. I hate that I let people feed off my thoughts and make the worse. I hate that Im not ‘pure.
@OceanEyes1 I hate how dumb I am. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing myself. I hate the way my mouth says things without thinking. I hate my feelings
I hate that I can't just sleep. It's my fault that my sleep schedule is so bad; I should be able to just fix it. I feel to freaking useless because I can't sleep at night and then sleep for 16 hours and don't do anything all day. The house is a wreck and I'm just in bed because I can't get up.
I hate how dont let myself feel good its like I let myself love some thing or someone and then I do something stupid to mess it up its really frustrating and it makes me feel trapped sometimes
I hate everything about me. My existence. My mistakes. My stupid decisions. A weakling. An embarresment. A mistake. An error. My life. Burdening people with my existence. Making people feel miserable. Practically all the negative things you can think about. I am the epitome of awkardness, they say. I am the negative in the world. I'm the one who they'll always to be blamed at. I'm the one who's at fault for every bad things happening in their lives. I'm a failure in everything. I can't get anything right. I bring misery in their lives. I ruined everything. People regretted meeting me.
What I hate myself most of all is that I don't have the power to stop it.
I cant control my emotions and I need to let things go. Im still ticked off at my mother in law because she took over my wedding two years ago like it was hers and my husband tells me I need to let it go but I cant. When people screw me over I refuse to let it go.
The fact that I will never be good enough for myself. The fact that everyone thinks I'm totally okay when I'm totally not. How the heck do I lie so well?
To feel the need of mom's and others approval.
I hate that Im weak. Its like Im unable to cope with anything that normal adults cope with. For the past few years it feels like everything I do is so physically and mentally taxing, whether is getting out of bed or trying to find a real job. I cant face the reality of life, the reality that time is slipping away. I feel like I wanna curl up into a ball and avoid everything by sleeping forever. I know that people around me confuse it for laziness, but its really not; my body and mind would rather run ten marathons than face my future.
I hate that Im uncomfortable and awkward. People close to me have always called my weird and theyre probably right. I scorn having photos or videos taken of me because it shows me myself from an outside perspective and I constantly look stiff, anxious and unattractive. Its hard to explain. I wish I was confident and comfortable in my own skin.
I overthink everything and make matters worse.
I hate how I've let myself been screwed over by so many guys that when I get into a relationship I give the guy the benefit of the doubt and believe that I should just accept the way they treat me. I hate how i have trust issues and believing that I will never be good enough for someone. I hate that I give 100% into the relationship and don't receive the same effort back.