Depression/ bullying

Hi lots of things are happening in my life right now first I’ll start with is depression I’ve had depression for little over 2 years now I’ve tried to get better by having a better mind set or try to be more productive. Depression has taken over my life. Another thing is that since when I was in middle school some guys would say stupid things like “I like you” and comments like that and one time this guy said “‘*my name* if I shoot this you have to go on a date with me” in front of lots of people and they didn’t mean it in a flirty way he was making fun of me and I’m overweight and they think it’s funny to do that stuff. There was many other times stuff like that happend. Leading up to my sophomore year we had this basketball tournament princess thing and you had to vote a girl from each class and some of the guys voted me as a joke and when they announced the winners some of the kids were smiling like they did that because they think it’s funny. And I already hate my slef and when people do that it makes me feel so bad and makes me cry. And not to mention my anxiety is a lot worse and also bullying is taking over my life. One time I tried to yk one night but I stopped eventually. I struggle with more things but those are some things that have been happening to me.