Depression is hard 💗

Heyyy Depression Community,

I get it. Depression is hard. I have to admit it. After all we are human , after everything we did go through, after the ups and downs, after falling and climbing, after existing and .. daydreaming. After the nights of crying in your bed screaming to the world. After crying. After faking a smile because you just want to be okay. After telling everyone your fine when thats not really the truth but you .. hide it all. 💜

You do so much but it all feels worthless. Its hard to enjoy anything anymore. Stepping away from relationships and friends because being alone seems like the only comfort💛 The things you used to love doing aren't loved anymore because the lack of motivation hits you piece by piece. 💚 You hate the fact that you breathe or the fact that your alive most of the time💙

Days feel like years. Seconds feel like hours. Months feel like a decade. Yet you still survive. 💜 The alarm goes off one more time.... and Oh damn .... damn.... Did i really wake up this morning? 💛 The anger you hold and the emotions you lock inside of you, suddenly blast when you shout and slam the door because thats all you have left to vent💚 No one damn understands and it feels like the whole world has turned upside down and once again.... You fall. 💛 You don't want to seem socially weird, but try to utter some words for the sake of it so you can fit in. Cover the scars and bruises 💙 And fake everything is as it is because you just want to be treated like a human 💜 Voices inside your head telling yourself that you aren't worthy and not loved.

So hard to swallow food or to even drink some water💜

"Depression is like being colour blind and constantly told how colourful the world is" 💚

Yet you try to reach deep inside your heart. 💜 but it all doesn't make sense. It all just.... seems so blurry. You can't make sense of the small problems, and they all seem to get bigger inside your eyes so you crawl and fall and ..... you just hate it💜 and maybe these interpretations and experiences of depression are just..... a nightmare. 💚 or a vision. Maybe .... I will wake up one day. Look in the mirror. and tell myself I got through it💙

Maybe one day you will tell yourself you *** made it and your so proud of yourself. That you are worthy. That you have been through so much, but you are still standing in this unimagined, unpredictable life, that you are not defined by what people said. Because you are just human. You are human. And you have fallen, you have got back up, you have failed, and tasted success, you have existed , you have taken deep breaths, you have had times of panic and sadness, you have been someone you aren't but sometimes you learn to be yourself. And your here. 💜 💗

Bunny