Don't even know what to do
It's just like I can't function anymore. Nothing brings me joy. I don't even have anything I could occupy my mind with as it's summer vacation right now. School drains life out of me, but now I'm "free" and I haven't felt this miserable in a long time.
I'm always mad at everyone, I barely have friends and I find them extremaly annoying.
I don't have any hobbies or talents. I always loved travelling, but I'm abroad right now and still, I feel like there is nothing in this world that would make me feel okay.
What can I do when it all feels so empty?
@floorm
It’s summer vacation. Are you alone, abroad, travelling by yourself and visiting destinations, or visiting family?
@floorm
I ask, because if you are traveling with family, then they might be helpful to you regarding your feelings. But if you are traveling alone, then maybe a place of worship or even a local therapist might help.
Even if you don’t seek out other people nearby … I am glad you stopped here at 7Cups. Isolation is the worst especially when we have these negative and empty feelings.
Please reach out anytime 🌳
I am travelling with family, but it looks like they feel awful themselves... It's like the world is losing all colours while I'm growing up :(
Summer used to be so fun and now it feels so forced
@floorm
I think you might be in a major “growth” process: your awarenesses and perceptions are probably expanding exponentially. I remember this part of my life, and it was *** … because I had no clue what was going on, and there wasn't a supportive community around me.
I can’t tell you how many days I wished I would not wake up in the morning. (There was trauma in my background.)
But you have 7Cups, so please keep connected … and you will make it through this.
Thank you, maybe it's not much, but I can finally feel heard atleast on here
@floorm
Yes, I am glad for that.
Anytime you want someone to listen, I will try … or if you would like to share some experiences, I am open for that too.
@floorm
Hi!
Is your vacation over? How are you doing?
Hello
Yeah, I'm back at home and I'm glad. Still not feeling my best, but atleast I have some space to relax. I'm worried that I am going to get bored soon tho. I need something to do, but nothing seems fun, like the world is too empty... I go outside, watch movies, play games, but it all seems bland.
And this applies to people as well. I can't really make any connections with anyone. I feel like everyone is the same and I'm some different species. Maybe some aliens dropped me off on earth and flew somewhere far away 😵💫
I think I need to find some purpose, but it's like I just don't belong anywhere and I'm just "observing" while everyone else is living their fullest
Also, thank you, I was just thinking about posting about this, so you've got great timing hahah
@floorm
Great timing?
That is funny! Do you know the belief that says, “There are no coincidences.”
What do you think about it? Do you believe in destiny? And divine order, and God?
Are you in university? What is your area of study?
Hmm it's a difficult topic I think. I'm more of a 'logical' type of person.
I tried to be more spiritual- to give life some meaning, but I just can't. This world feels like a huge mystery. Nature aligns so well and yet at the same time we are unsure of our existance.
Life feels very random to me, so I don't think I believe in destiny. After all, I can always change something and boom- the outcome is totally different.
Also I always had been an atheist. I wanted to be relligious, just to have some being to look up to, but I can't. Everyone always wants me to find God, but no one is telling me where to look hahah...
Regarding studies, I am still in high school and have 0 plans for the future. I want to go to university, but no idea what could I even study. It's like I'm some empty shell of a human, waiting for an identity
@floorm
Hi …
Thanks for answering my questions, I really appreciate it.
Would it be okay if we continued our conversation in a Pen Pal thread?
Sure. You can start it, I'm still pretty new to 7 cups so I'm unsure of all the functions.
@floorm
Okay, I have started one for us here: Go to “Community” - “Peer Groups” - “Pen Pals” - … and look for our post with our usernames in the title.
