Don't know how to deal.
I've somewhat recently been diagnosed with depression. I've been off and off my meds for mouths.
Even when I'm on my meds I don't notice too much effect anymore.
I struggle to do anything at times, I have no motivation. My head will tell me that I need to do XYZ and it feels like my body just doesn't respond.
I struggle to find real joy in anything, I can't remeber the last time I was actually happy for more than a fleeting moment
I'm really at a loss at how to proceed, am I broken? Is this just my fate?
You aren't broken and you aren't fated to be miserable. It is just a long, challenging fight. Medication needs months of constant usage to do any good. You also need to be talking to people. But all of that takes lots of time and effort.
I know that I did come out the other side but it was a surprise when I did. I almost didn't believe I was getting better. Know that it can happen at any point.
Just keep trying. You are learning how to care for yourself. @Token1189
