Don’t know what to say anymore

Only writing because I feel obligated to. Still having thoughts of harm, but now they’re getting stronger. Sleep is difficult. Eating feels pointless. Treatment is inaccessible due to no job and no money. I’ve reached a higher level of unhappiness with life. Before my thoughts were just circling in my head. But now, there’s a part of me that wants to act on them. So now this battle is turning into a real fight.