Empty......TW SH, self esteem issues
Maeebae99
June 25th
Feeling empty all the time is not for the weak. You would think that living would be easy, but it’s not—not when every single day feels like drowning in silence, like I’m screaming underwater and no one can hear me. Every laugh is a brittle sound that shatters in my mouth, every smile is painted on so carefully, but it slides away the moment I’m alone. Nights are the cruelest, when the world goes still and even the darkness feels like it’s pressing in on me. I bury my face in my pillow, soaking it with silent tears, wishing I could simply disappear. I beg myself not to give in, but the urge to hurt myself is relentless—it claws at my resolve, whispering that pain is the only thing that can make me feel real. Every tiny mistake, every awkward moment, feels like a tidal wave crashing over me, and when the sharp relief fades, it leaves behind a shame so deep it makes my bones ache. My gut twists with self-loathing, an ache that feels like it will never let go. Sometimes it feels like I’m being eaten alive from the inside, hollowed out by sadness and regret.
I pick apart every part of myself—the way I walk, the way I talk, the way I present myself in front of others. I hate my smile because it feels like a lie. I hate how I look in a bathing suit, how flat and empty my body feels. There’s a constant voice in my head listing everything wrong with me, and sometimes, it feels like the sadness will never end. The emptiness doesn’t just linger; it devours, and all I can do is hope to make it to the next day.
~Mae
raphael86
June 25th
@Maeebae99 I'm sorry your life is like this right now 💙 you deserve better
I am (or any other listener is) here for you if you need someone in your corner when things are dark 💙
