Everything is going down hill again
school
Everything is just going downhill again I was feeling great and like not depressed and no friend drama I could keep up with homework and now that feeling of being ok is completely gone.
First I can not stop thinking about my ex and he keeps talking to me and trying to be friends and while I was trying to get over him I couldn't talk to anyone. Now I have to remind myself why I hate him but its not working.
This year one of my best friends from school is always talking to the girl who bullied me for two years straight and never payed attention to her in all 4 years I've been at my school. she's now ghosted me and like three other of the girls in my class who were really good friends with her.
I started doing track last year and I loved it and I still love it and I was good at it to. my PR last year for the 200m race was 27.18 and I went to all of the meets (races) and even championships and I've only been able to go to one meet this year and I sucked I got 37.34. I cant go to meet tomorrow because there are so many kids on the team so not everyone can go and the coaches are only bringing the kids who are close to qualifying for championships so not me. almost of my friends are going to the meet tomorrow and championships.
This morning the school counselor came in to talk about healthy body image and I was feeling great about myself and then I just couldnt stop thinking about how much I hate the way I look.
On top of all of this we have end of the year testing and we had a test on Monday and one tomorrow where I have to write an essay in just a couple hours and I hate writing essays and I wouldn't be surprised if I end up having a panic attack tomorrow. we also have like double the amount of homework we normally have and I have sports all week for the next two weeks then track will end but I'll still have stuff on the other three days. there just aren't enough hours in the day and I need someone to lean on but I feel so alone and isolated.
@coolpeoplez wow that's alot of pressure and things happening all at once, no wonder you feel like your going downhill 🙁 with your friend it's strange how people can change so quickly it feels like she betrayed you all🙁 but unfortunately it's a common thing. And your ex if your not ready to be friends, if you still have feelings for him, that's ok stay headstrong remember what you've been through. I'm sorry about track, that must be gutting not being able to go to the meet up🙁 but that's not on you, you are good at it remember that, and also remember it's something you love and have fun doing, that's the important thing 💖 that speaker about body image, put words in your head that you know is not true. And the essay and tests, you can only do your best and that is more than good enough 💖 I understand it's gonna be a busy week, so make sure to breath, stay hydrated and step back if you feel overwhelmed. Gives you a giant tiny hug 💗 you got this 💖 everything is gonna be ok 💖
@Tinywhisper11 I'm so sorry that was alot of advice I gave you😕 I get carried away sometimes, sorry💖
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Sits beside you and hugs you tightly 💖 I'm glad you feel like you can open up and vent here 💖 this is your safe place, and I hear you 💖