Feeling empty :)
I don’t even know what to type , or really how to type what I want to say. Having a kid with someone who doesn’t care about you, is mentally exhausting and a great way to hurt yourself . You just sit back and wish they cared, but they never do. And when you finally get the courage to leave , you end up crying for days because you wanted things to work out so bad . I’ve questioned myself multiple times, asking myself things like “ what’s wrong with you?” “ were you just someone fun to sleep with ? “ “ am I not worth trying ?” it’s also very hard to move on. Single parents always get looked down on. I’ve been so down, and I give everyone attitude, randomly break down crying , and self isolating . I feel everything and nothing all at once . It feels weird .
@lelebear
hello, lelebear 💕🧸
it is with a sympathetic heart that i write this to you, i'm extremely sorry to hear about your situation. sounds to me that you’re having a very difficult time mentally, and that can be so draining.
i must assure you, that you are indeed enough & worth trying, just not for that person. we all have our person, and sometimes we meet someone we truly love and think that, “yes, this is my perfect match” when they aren’t really, and that’s okay. it’s okay to make mistakes, the important thing is that you learn from them.
i know raising a kid by yourself is going to get challenging at times, but you don’t have to do it alone, and regardless, you got this 🫂 i’m sure your kid couldn’t ask for a better mom.
with time you’ll get better, those feelings of being down, self-isolating, randomly break down crying and snapping at everyone, i used to be like that as well when i was depressed, i believe you might be experiencing the same thing. it’s okay to seek help whenever you feel ready, or if it’s necessary. you will be okay! ❤️
have you tried self care activities to help with the coping process? if so, would you like to share?
