Hating my life these days.
To start, no, I’m not feeling suicidal (however the thought of getting hit by a bus doesn’t bother me either). I’m actually a mixed bag right now but depression is playing a big part in it. Mixed bag includes anxiety, loneliness, apathy, irritability, lack of motivation, loss of hope and joy. I’m doing everything I can to stay positive but am struggling big time. I think my meds are wearing off and not effective anymore.
I’m posting here because I feel the need to get it out of my system. Thanks for taking a moment to read this.
@1in8billion
It is hard sometimes to shake those feelings it is like every time i get that it is harder to stay positive.
Hope you get through this soon.
Thanks. I read somewhere or was told once that these feelings are only temporary.
I feel the same, I accidentally break everything I get
@1in8billion
Hi Billion, I hope you don't feel like you have to force yourself to be positive. Some days just suck sometimes and it's okay to feel bad.
Thank you. I’m not really trying to force myself to be positive. It’s just that if I accept negativity, it’ll just spiral downwards and I’m afraid to let that happen.
You’re right though, it’s okay to feel this way. I just don’t want to be stuck like this for too long.
Any time. Many of us have been there. You can come and vent here on this thread every night if you want to.
What kinds of things are you doing to care for yourself? @1in8billion
Appreciate it and will when I feel the need to.
For self care, I usually try to go to the gym for a run. I like working with my hands so I usually have a scale model on the go or a small DIY project of some kind.
It sounds like you are doing some great stuff. Go you! Just keep doing that kind of thing and maybe add in a little more. And if you don't think the meds are working, talk to your doctor. You don't deserve to feel bad. But often we have to remind ourselves of this. @1in8billion
