Have you ever...?
Hello. I have never posted here, so here it goes. I have no self-esteem. It started with my family and continues with my spouse. Everything is my fault. Failed job searches, negative reviews. I've lost faith in my abilities. I feel guilty for causing pain to my children through my life choices. I have no one to talk to about this. I don't want to bother my close friends because they have their own problems. I know that other people have worse problems and that makes me hate myself more for complaining. I keep things bottled inside and I shut down when confronted. I just let others blame me and tell me I'm useless. Every day I just take up space. I came to 7 Cups to find others like me and maybe find some hope.
@NotAllHere713
You are not alone it can be easy to buy into when family and then your spouse ...who should be your biggest fan and support treats you like you are at fault.... you are not a bad choice in the past.
We all make mistakes and sometimes poor choices but making better choices and then good ones can turn it all around... if your close group is not your cheerleader or fan then you will need to step up and be your own support and fan. i know you can do it because I have been in similar shoes .... the most progress and good things happened once i decided to tune out those who did not have my back.
@toughTiger6481
Thank you for your words of encouragement. How did you learn to become your own support? I feel like I am suffocating under the weight of the expectations of some and all the negativity from others. It's difficult to tune out those you're in contact every day.
@NotAllHere713
I too still interact with those on a regular basis but i set goals and made steps towards progress the KEY in my case was not let others in on my plan/ goals.
I just smiled and played along when they wanted to " advise" me .... but tuned it out like i was speaking to a toddler.... i am sure whatever they babble they think it is important but made no sense to me
i made gains regardless of their opinion.