Have you ever had the paranoid thought u died already and are in hell?
I keep having this thought on and off and I was wondering if anyone else ever experienced this. It’s really scary because it feels real. Maybe it’s just because of how isolating my life is here. I’m in my 20s where everything “fun” is supposed to happen yet I’ll never even finish high school or go to college like NORMAL people get to. Maybe the reality is just getting to me. It sucks here. I hate everyone where I live, this stinky town should be destroyed.
@greendayfangirl
Ive learnt to redefine concepts like "supposed to" or "normal". Who sets those concepts and why should I live my life by someone else's definitions? Maybe you should consider redefining them too?
Who says you are supposed to have the most fun in your 20s? I had more fun in my late 30s to early 40s, and I have every intention of having more fun in my 50s.
Who says what "normal" is? If you look back in history, what was normal has changed many many times. So can we be sure that what some see as normal is actually right?
I understand you feel stuck and lonely in a town. Towns can do that and that feeling of isolation is rough and soul destroying. But we only have one life. Are you going to watch yours go by or start working on changing yours?
Remember that the word impossible spells "I'm possible". Self belief is a power worth discovering.
@Clio9876 thanks, I guess I’m just behind everyone and it gets to me sometimes. But I appreciate the nice stuff you said
@greendayfangirl
Yep. I relate to that. I was bullied when younger for not being trendy or cool or in with the crowd. But later, I achieved things no one else did. I'm sure it doesn't feel like it now, but bring nice does pay.