Hello people
Hi, I just got this app yesterday. I don't how to start this sorry, I never reached out to anyone about my mental health, it feels really awkward hah, I did so many tests and I got depression. Getting a therapist or a diagnosis in my country is very expensive and not worth it since our healthcare is horrible. I could be bipolar but I don't know, it's just whatever is ruining my life, I really need to stop it for my sake and people's, I ruined every relationship with almost every person I know because of my mood swings, I tried everything, all hobbies but I can't find any amusement or joy in doing it.
I can't go out side since I have no one so I just rot in my room, I don't know where to start or how. All I want is to get rid of this.
Sorry for the long uncessesary talk
Hey @greengecko2000, Welcome to 7 Cups! I'm really glad you are here and felt able to open up today💜 It can be difficult to reach out for the first time, and may feel awkward or unfamiliar especially if you've never talked about your mental health before, but it's a really brave step.
It sounds like you've been dealing with a lot on your own for a long-time. You mentioned feeling depressed, unsure what's going on with your food and stuck in a cycle where nothing feels enjoyable anymore, which sounds incredibly heavy. It can make everything feel more overwhelming when healthcare is hard to access or too expensive, I'm sorry you are going through all that.
What you wrote about losing joy in hobbies, feeling isolated and staying inside because you don't have anyone around, are experiences that many people here will relate to. Depression can make even the smallest things feel impossible and mood swings can strain relationships in ways that make us feel guilty or alone. You've been hurting without support, and you deserve a space where you can talk about it all.
You're more than welcome to stay here in the forums if that feels comfortable. A lot of people prefer taking things slowly and connecting through posts. If you ever feel like talking 1:1, you can also reach out to a listener for a private chat, it's completely optional but there if you want to talk to someone directly. We also have group chats where people come together to share, vent or just feel less alone.
You don't have to figure out everything at once, you've already taken a big step by reaching out.
I'm sending you virtual hugs 💜
Emma
@greengecko2000
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