Help
Hello,
Bear with me as this Is my first time ever reaching out to someone even though it’s to a bunch of strangers on the internet. I’ve never done this before so my thoughts could be all over the place.
I am 21 years old and I just recently got a puppy. It was really unexpected as my brother surprised me with it. The more and more I take care of this puppy, I realized my lack of identity. I think all my life I never really lived for myself. think I’ve been living my life just pleasing people and living for others that I didn’t make any choices for myself or go explore things that would interest me. I really thought I would love owning a dog and in doing so give me an identity. Instead I don’t feel anything other than stress and guilt. I feel like I’m a terrible person. At this point I don’t know what my life is worth. I don’t feel emotional like others can and I really can’t seem to find my purpose here.. I really do love my friends and family but I don’t know… I feel like everyone could live on without me and not realize it after a while. I’m trying so hard to realize that god made me for a reason but I hate the person I am. I just feel so *** all the time… I can’t even express these feelings because I know how it will affect the people around me. I don’t want to be a baggage of negativity when I can’t provide them of anything valuable. I think I just don’t have any self worth. I sometimes have thoughts that say if I were to die right now I would be ok with it as I don’t think I really deserve this life. If someone with more ambition, someone with more emotion, someone with more dreams had my life, they could have been a much better soul for my friends and family than I could ever be. I think that’s is also part of the reason I’m always so sorry for everything. I’m so grateful that these people are in my life but damn I just can’t seem to grasp this life thing haha.
@independentWalker1153 hello ❤ yeah life has many mysteries, our paths and reason isn't always clear. Your very lucky to have living family and friends, but I get how telling them things is just not something you want to burden them with. You know what you are the best you, you could ever be. And that's all you can be, and let me tell you that is more than enough ❤❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤ squeezes you tightly ❤ well done for reaching out, I hope you get all the support you need here ❤ I'm only a tag away if you need me ❤
@Tinywhisper11 loving* family and friends*
@independentWalker1153,
Hey, No one can replace you dear. Thats a truth. I hope you know that the person you shouldlove the most is yourself. Dont hurt your self mentally and physically to help and please others. Your emotions are really valid and should be heard.
You are just 21 dear, its not the time for you take responsibility of your families emotions. Dont think too much. Do crazy things, go for trips, be angry at times, be sad at times, be happy at times. Most importantly share your emtions. People always gonna judge, you cant stop that.
I know that you will reach on happines and selfworth but i hope thats a smooth journey. Just hold on and trust your self💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓
