Hi
Hi everyone I'm new to this app and I have a problem I need to talk about but i have no one to listen to me. I'm su-ic-id-al and i have no money to go and see a therapist, I'm starting to seriously think about dr-in-ki-ng b-le-ac-h and en-di-ng my li-fe because I'm suffering a lot, my future doesn't seem to be bright either and the only thing that makes my breathe till this day is my future, but after considering all the possibility of my getting out of my extremely hostile family home, all roads are blocked. If i genuinely need to get out i need to get married becuase my parents would never allow me to have my own house, if I'm gonna get married I'm afraid I'm gonna become a literal slave to my husband becuase I'm living in a extremely patriarchal society. If i d-i-e will genuinely get rid of all those problems, no more cr-yi-ng myself to sleep, no more st-re+ss, no more ab-u-se, no more worrying about my not-so-bright future. Everything will e-n-d and i will be genuinely relieved.
Please for anyone who's reading this i need someone to talk to, I'm feeling stuck I really don't know what to do.
@nouhamarouanii hey, thanks for reaching out, i'm glad that you're trying to find someone to talk to. you have me to listen to you. i may not be able to help you a lot with the understandably difficult situation you're dealing with right now, but i'll always be here to listen if you decide to share more. 💙
i get how you feel, i understand you're suffering and hurting. *hugs if okay* 🫂 but i really don't want you to act on those thoughts, i want you to keep yourself safe, please, even if i'm just a stranger. please hold on. is reaching out for help, like calling a helpline an option for you? maybe you can give it a try. i want you to get the help and support you deserve. you can find some helplines here: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines
if calling for help is not an option, i understand. i won't force it on you because i know having something forced on you when it's not an option really hurts. i want to let you know that you're not alone in dealing with these suicidal thoughts. many people do, and i do too. i understand the feeling and the pain and have felt it for myself countless times in my life. i'm not equipped to really help you with the thoughts that i myself also struggle with. and i also don't want be a person who tells others stuff that i myself don't believe when i'm down. so i'll share with you some stuff that has helped me through those really dark moments:
- https://metanoia.org/suicide/
- https://www.7cups.com/forum/generalsupport/SharingPositivity_2362/OneFromTheJournal_328168/
- https://www.7cups.com/forum/gratitude/PositiveMessagesReminders_2231/UnIverse_327956/
i really hope it helps you too, because it has helped me. and remember that i'm here for you, okay? ❤️
i understand that you don't think your future will be bright, but i'm glad that the little bit of hope you have/had for it has kept you breathing today. i'm really sorry about the really tough family you need to live with and the patriarchal society you live in. by the way, i have to tell you, on some level, i get what it's like with a hostile family, though mine isn't too bad on the outside. you don't deserve to be this stuck in this home, i'm really sorry for you. i understand you feel like there's no way out other than death, but i still want you to hold on.
i'm here to talk to. would you like me to set up a place for us to talk? i hate to break it to you but 7 cups usually deletes posts where people mention suicide, because 7 cups is not a crisis resource. personally i feel that it can make a person feel ignored and dismissed and uncared for. so i really hope you see this reply before any deleting happens. when it does get deleted, remember i will still be here, okay? you can talk to me. ❤️
*sending warmth and hugs if okay* 🤗
Thank you so much for reaching out to me, it really made me cry, i really appreciated it. If it's okay for you, yes, you can set up a place for us to talk, though i don't want to be a burden because you're dealing with the same problems as i am, but i still appreciate it a lot that someone is willing to listen to me because i feel ignored and belittled. Thank you so much again. Sending love to you ❤️❤️
@nouhamarouanii aww i hope i didn't make you cry in a bad way. sure i'll set up a place to talk. quick question before i do that - what can i call you, what name do you go by on 7 cups?
i promise you and assure you, you will never burden me just because i deal with my problems. i genuinely want to help you in any way i can, and being able to help out will help me, it makes me feel better when i'm helping someone i genuinely want to help. i absolutely do understand what it feels like to feel like a burden, and i can relate to the feeling, i feel that way most of the time. but you are not a burden to me. i promise. ❤️
i really do get that you feel ignored and belittled. it's easy to feel that way when we live in a home where we witness abuse and get abused. you're not alone. i'm willing to listen. and no need to thank me. *sending lots of love back at you* ❤️
(little note: my next reply will take a while because my parents are calling me and i need to go. but i'm here and will be back soon. stay safe please.)
Thank you again for your support ❤️ i go by Nouha in 7 cups, what do you go by ?
Sending love and prayers your way ❤️
@nouhamarouanii no need to thank me, nouha, i'm happy to talk to you. i'm berry, by the way. *sending love and prayers your way too* ❤️
How do you want us to talk, do you have an *** account perhaps ? Can you share it with me if that's okay ❤️❤️
@nouhamarouanii we can talk on here: https://www.7cups.com/forum/penpals/General_2656/AspacefornouhamarouaniiandBerry_339578 and no, i don't use social media (except for watching youtube). and even if i did, i'm sorry but i wouldn't engage in offsite contact because it can be pretty unsafe and is also against site guidelines. i'm here for you to talk to and listen to you, as long as it's within 7 cups. i hope you understand. ❤️
Yes, i definitely understand that, thank you again for reaching out 😊
@nouhamarouanii thank you so understanding. i'm here for you anytime you want to talk here, you can always tag me, okay? 💙