I am just too battered 😭😭😭😭

The Background to this Post

To add to these 

 December 1st

My assistant resigned, leaving me alone with 3 businesses to keep and recover.

My assistant resigned, because I'll not pay her, as my payments went straight to her creditors.

Then my PC loses its wifi driver - just disappears and my monitor has full of overlay and flickering. Meaning i cannot do any work whatsoever.

Sent it to the shop, but for 1 week they sat on it, citing lack of manpower and that the outsourcing vendor won't backup my partitions before to completely wipe and reinstall my pc! They will only wipe my system clean it seems!

In addition to that, i got a bit of viral flu that clogged my ear. And my specs frame and lens broke. Financially I'm also living on dwindling savings.

While I'm under a lot of stress. And my parents can gaslight when i vent not to them but just to my house, they demanding I calm down and be grateful to them. 

They try to make decisions for me and pressure me to accept it, even though i don't need it and they don't care to know what's really happening.

And my parents are adding on pressure by hounding and demanding i spend on a new PC etc. While 

 And about how better get it done soon as they are too old and ridiculous to expect them to support me.

Doesn't help that they keep reminding me to find new PC!

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The more setbacks and gaslighting from family determined to undermine and underplay my issues, and adding to it will health shaming my indigestion and sinus and weight issues.

They demand to know what i want to do, and since I am in a limbo..

They are trying to make and impose decisions on me, without knowing or caring to know my situation

They won't shutshut even when i have a headache. But when they want: quiet everybody must go shh shh and give them space???

while they will talk loudly and feed me what to say when i am on a call, making the other caller uncomfortable or irritated with me.