I am tired and exhausted now
I just can't keep going anymore. I am tired and exhausted.
The girl I've been in love with for eight years is with someone else now.
I can't get a job. I've been upskilling, but that made me leave DSA, and now I can't bring myself to start with DSA again. It's exhausting.
Everyone I know is moving on with their lives. I can't get my mind to function anymore.
I come from a family of top achievers, and I am nowhere near them.
I am on bad terms with all of my friends or family members.
I am depressed, angry, addicted to porn and masturbation, and I don't feel smart at all.
I can't walk straight, I limp a lot (I don't know why).
I have very poor eyesight, and it just keeps getting worse.
Because of my porn and masturbation addiction, I've stopped respecting women, and I feel deeply guilty for that. For being such a bad person.
I don't know what I can do or where I can go from here. I am terrified of wasting my youth (I'm 24 years old), terrified of never growing up emotionally and mentally, and, worst of all, I am terrified that one day I will become a bad person (the kind of person my past and current self would hate).
@brightDay6709 hi sweetie 💗 I'm 24 years old too 😁 depression can really take it's toll on us😕 and I believe you are stuck in a cycle of comparing yourself to others, life is not a race. So try not to put yourself down just because others do things better/differently💖 you've already recognised what needs to change to get you out of this rut, which is a great start💖 the only one who can change this for you is you. Gives you a giant tiny hug 💗 you are capable of anything so just baby steps, you got this 💖
