I cannot cry

@slayerspike I couldn't cry for many years, then a year or so into therapy, the tears started coming. The other week I cried like a big baby for 14 hours😂😂 I think to be able to cry, first you need to address your feelings your fears. Which isn't a nice journey, but I'm always right here for you ❤ we all are. Suppressing your emotions and feelings can only go on for so long before it starts coming out in other ways like nightmares, anger etc. So ideally I think you need to find some root causes to work on. Gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤ good luck sweetie ❤❤ remember we are here for you ❤

I just contemplate on my mistakes and honestly tell myself how worthless I am for several nights. Works from time to time.

Why cant I like my own post?

@slayerspike When I get like that, I either try "fluffing" (i.e. watching clips on YouTube I know will make me want to cry). BUT, sometimes: hysterical belly laughing can also do the trick. Craig Ferguson the comedian used to get the giggles on his show, so sometimes I'll watch clips of him crying-laughing, and it helps me to laugh and laugh--and eventually it becomes sort of sobby laughter.

Also: Flail around and do angry wailing miserable temper-tantrumy dancing. This is so helpful for me, too, since as grownups we don't usually get to show our despair through our bodies--not the way little kids do. Marina's song "Blue" is a wonderful song for this because it's super peppy-sounding but is all about making terrible choices and being miserable, and I dance the demons out sometimes

I have that problem for sure. I remember reading the book ‘Bud, not Buddy’ in school and the main character, Bud talked about how he couldn’t cry because of how much pain he went through. For me, it’s that I cried a lot when I was child over everything ‘cause I’m sensitive and now I’m more numb to derogatory actions. But it’s a possibility if coping mechanisms don't come right away, i know for a fact when I’m angry or mad, my brain does not go to the ‘count from 10’ method, it instead goes to rage. I also think a part in why I don’t cry as much is because my age group doesn’t. I can’t recall a time this year when one of my friends or peers broke down in school. It would seem odd and almost immature for me to do it, even though it’s probably more healthier to cry than to keep everything inside. Depression may also partake in this, because I think at my deep point I felt sad 24/7 meaning it wasn’t crying 24/7 it was just feeling sad. When someone said something mean to me it was more like ‘I’m already sad, that comment doesn’t really have a super big impact on me, even though it did.’ Because its not like bullying and all those other negative things are gonna make my depression better but it’s more like inching your way into endless rut. I don’t really know if my answer was good, I’m still in school and have lots of life to live, things to learn. I hoped I helped!

I have that problem for sure. I remember reading the book ‘Bud, not Buddy’ in school and the main character, Bud talked about how he couldn’t cry because of how much pain he went through. For me, it’s that I cried a lot when I was child over everything ‘cause I’m sensitive and now I’m more numb to derogatory actions. But it’s a possibility if coping mechanisms don't come right away, i know for a fact when I’m angry or mad, my brain does not go to the ‘count from 10’ method, it instead goes to rage. I also think a part in why I don’t cry as much is because my age group doesn’t. I can’t recall a time this year when one of my friends or peers broke down in school. It would seem odd and almost immature for me to do it, even though it’s probably more healthier to cry than to keep everything inside. Depression may also partake in this, because I think at my deep point I felt sad 24/7 meaning it wasn’t crying 24/7 it was just feeling sad. When someone said something mean to me it was more like ‘I’m already sad, that comment doesn’t really have a super big impact on me, even though it did.’ Because its not like bullying and all those other negative things are gonna make my depression better but it’s more like inching your way into endless rut. I don’t really know if my answer was good, I’m still in school and have lots of life to live, things to learn. I hoped I helped!