I carry it all alone but I still dream of hope

Hi, 7 Cups Community! I just want to share my story because I feel like I’m drowning and I don't know what to do

I’m 23 years old and I just graduated with a degree in Business Administration. But instead of feeling proud and hopeful, I feel lost and emotionally exhausted. I grew up in a home where I was treated like I was never meant to exist. My father called me the “bad luck” of the family. I later found out I was unplanned, and that truth still haunts me.

Despite that, I tried my best. I worked hard in school and earned a scholarship, which I used not just for school needs but also to pay for my PCOS treatment during college. I never asked anyone for help. I just kept going, hoping that if I proved my worth, I’d finally feel accepted.

Recently, I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. It took a lot of courage for me to seek help. But instead of support, my family got angry. They told me I was just being dramatic and ungrateful. They refused to support me mentally, emotionally, or financially.

I want to heal. I want to be okay. But I’m really struggling.

I don’t even know how to afford therapy or medication anymore.

I’m not writing this to complain—I just needed a safe space to let it out.

If anyone here has ever felt invisible, unwanted, or tired of pretending to be strong... I see you. I hear you. You’re not alone.

(If it’s okay to share to all of you, I created a page in case anyone wants to help or share:

👉 https://gogetfunding.com/help-me-heal-from-pcos-and-depression-journey-to-recovery/)

Thank you for reading. It means more than you know.