I don't feel good for a long time

I can't recall when it all started, but for past few (or honestly feels like more) years i feel so empty and broken. Especially last few months been so hard for me, like there were a line between where i could still manage things and move forward and feel like nothing. Even going outside is a hard thing now. I started to sleep at day instead of night, just to not contact any of my family member, cause facing them and talking is so hard right now. I also got more sleep hours than normal just to skip the day. Talking to strangers is even scarier, my body is shaking and i feel like i'm saying stupid things even if i'm not.

There is so much more, but i don't feel like spilling it all today, i just wrote what first came in my head. And i should mention that english is not my first language, in case if my writing might confuse you. Thank you.