If anyone relates to me
Hi ,so I wanted to say that my whole life I've felt like I never belonged anywhere,like I'm unseen ,unheard , unsupported, unapreciated and always unhappy because I've been through a lot of isolation and loneliness and I just don't understand why ,every time I go out in public I always feel isolated and suicidal...and people say to love myself,I do ,I do love myself but that's not enough, because loving yourself and being loved by others doesn't fill the same void ,yes , happiness is internal but our external circumstances (people ,food ,places) affect us and if you are surrounded by a hostile environment then instead of happiness you absorbed negative energy that gets stored inside you so you see ,it's not really possible to be happy when you're environment is negative.
@Catherine23564 I can relate
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@Catherine23564 Im still waiting to see your art😅
But how ? We can't exchange socials...😑
Hi, I'm new here. I can relate.
@Catherine23564 I more than relate to this. I've been suicidal for way too long. Every day I have more reasons to die and I've completely given up on ever finding a good reason to stay alive. There simply is no such thing. Not for someone in my position. Not with my circumstances. All that generic positive sounding bs people say in places like this only makes me angry. I'm sick and tired of people claiming they're compassionate, saying they care, then kicking me away to be someone else's problem the first chance they get. Most people will notice that you're "not happy" and say "you should get help". Some will say "if you ever need to talk to someone, I'm here for you" but they never are. Listeners in this sh*t site will send you a list of suicide hotlines the moment you say the s word, even if your country isn't on that list. And the hotlines themselves run on a ridiculously rigid protocol that is designed to defer responsibility, a counselor will not even let you answer their own stupid intrusive irrelevant questions before they hit you with the next portion of their rotten script. Suicide hotline people have one job: To prove that anyone they're talking to ISN'T suicidal, and therefore, can have the conversation shut in their face. I hate it. I hate this stupid system, and no, I am not talking about the healthcare industry. That's a whole different conversation all on its own.
Hey sweetie @Catherine23564 🌸💕
First of all, A tight warm *hugs* for you 💞 I'm sorry you going through a lot. I'm here for you. i know it feels. i see you💜
Honestly… that’s so painfully relatable. I don’t know why, but it felt like you wrote a whole paragraph straight out of my own heart. You resonate with me on every level, the isolation, the loneliness, the feeling of not belonging anywhere, the craving for love and care that never really gets filled.
I’m in that same chaos too, and I’m genuinely sorry you’re carrying all of this.
And yes… I completely agree with what you said: loving yourself and being loved by others are two different things. Thank you for naming feelings I couldn’t even describe these past days. I’ve been drifting with this heavy emptiness, feeling like I don’t belong anywhere, like I can’t give love fully, like I’m either nobody’s priority or the last one on the list.
Lately my episodes come back more often. My thoughts get dark, my mind gets loud, and I feel like I’m constantly pretending to smile while dragging this pressure on my chest. It’s exhausting trying to explain a storm that nobody sees. I feel fragile even when I try to act strong.
And what you said about the environment… you’re absolutely right. People can shape your hope, your faith, your mood, without even realizing. I’m also surrounded by harsh voices and rough attitudes, and no matter how much I try to stay calm or positive, one sharp word can break everything I built inside. It’s like crawling out of the pit only to fall again.
But reading your post… I don’t feel so isolated for a moment.
Just knowing someone feels something close to what I feel eases the weight a little.
I’m not here to give advice or pretend to have answers. I’m just here to tell you this: you’re not alone in this mess.
Your feelings make sense. Your pain makes sense. And if you ever need someone to share that heavy heart - aching soul with, I’m right here, someone who genuinely understands that ache.💜
We can hold space for each other in this dark corner of the world.
Sending love and care your way💕
*hugs* 🤗✨
@Catherine23564
I am a therapist. You couldn't love yourself if you have feelings in which you described here .
I recommend first to secure a skilled therapist. Next, make an effort with a lifestyle change.
It's easy to get into a rut but difficult to get out of one .
Create a support system with family and friends that you trust. A support system can keep you grounded when difficult times arise .
Well ,I'm trying my best but my mental health isn't great,and I don't want to feel like I don't love myself,I don't like being needy and insecure and feeling this way but I can't really fix things,I just suffer a lot and suffering is all I know and I just think that help is too late
@Catherine23564
Hello Catherine.
I really relate with your feelings. I'm not so young and maybe every single week I found this "to late" in my soul. Advices from therapists and friends didn't help at all. As you say I am shame to look like a man in needs and insecure. Well, all the time when this "to late" comes in my mind there is something deep in my heart, a little hope, sparkling, and giving me the idea or thought everything will pass, time will solve the problem and I want to give to this little hope, little light within myself a second chance. Right now writting this post I have same feeling and I give to my own this little hope a chance to grow, maybe next day, maybe next week. I hope it helps both of us, everyone who relate with that feeling. ... And something more I found is a mature thing to do asking help from others. I was so proud and I never ask for help. Now, I believe it is an really important thing we can do, asking for help, asking for support. That is a mature thing we can do.
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@Catherine23564 can we be friends? However I'm not that much in singing dancing stuff ^~^ I'm studious
@Catherine23564
Hi, Catherine! I can relate too. I feel your pain like my own (see the nickname). If you want to talk, send me a message. Good luck!
Yes, thank you for reaching out 😊
I do want to talk ,I hope I can have someone to listen