I feel like I’m a problem to everyone and I know im struggling
Summary. I’ve always struggled imo with a lot of different things, depression, anxiety, self esteem, (and stuff that shall not be named) preteen+ to now but now as an adult I’m trying to be better for me and my loved ones. But as I’m with my family and partner I feel like I’m failing all over again, I have nothing more to give than my care, love, and advice in my own way and it just seems like it’s not enough or it’s backlash/wrong. I’m questioning my sanity if I’m actually an awful problematic person, I’m continually changing at a safe and drastic amount for them so I can be less of a problem but it’s always the same outcome at some point. I’m so defeated and I feel like I’m reversing in my mental again, I’ve just barely gotten ahold of my physical care again and I’m trying to be more independent to get a normal life with a drivers license but everything is telling me to give up and hermit till I decide “something” happens. NO I’m NOT wanting to, but living in that state of mind for more than half of my life, my mind easily goes back to cope because it’s comfortable there.
I just need advice on maybe things I can do for myself or others. Anything will do, thank you.
Hello @discreetMango7530!
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings - it took a lot of courage to write those words.
You are giving your love and care to your family and that's more than enough! I've been through depression and I know that it feels impossible to escape the negative thought patterns. Please be aware that you are valued, you are loved, and you are cherished. even if you don't feel that way about yourself. You are not a problem.
Depression and anxiety is like a fog, smothering your potential with negative feelings. You have it within yourself to take the steps to do what you want to do - I see it in your words.
I wish you the best of luck! 💖