I just want to get it out of my system

I don't know what to say here, I don't usually feel comfortable writing something for many people but at the same time I feel like I want to say it.

I feel lonely, not just physically, but emotionally...Sometimes when I'd like to ask for help the most, I feel like my friends aren't there, and deep down I know they are, but there's something in me that makes me feel like I'm alone in this.

And even if I wanted to go out and make real friends, maybe meet that one girl who could understand me... It feels almost impossible to do so,Because for as long as I can remember, I've always been terrified of interacting with people, and now I just don't have the confidence or security to try it again.