I'm broken girl 💔

He broke me..I can't stand it..I have panic attacks, anxiety and depression now..I met a boy in UK in online and we closed quickly and we become a good friends and we connected ***.we shared lots of interest things. I felt love with him..I go to beach often and write his name on sand and get pics and send him,make bangles ( his name) lock is his birthday date..he knows I love him and he used me wrong 🙂 he said me he never leave me,he never cheated on me,he never ignore me and trust me I trusted him and I destroyed myself..I shared more personal things in my life with him ..he saved my personal things..he sent one day two girls videos and try and I saw his following list and that two girls in there. I found he has a lot of girls..I asked him he said no but I know the truth and I silent because I can't separate that time..and after we shared lots of things.. after 5 months he ignored me and I asked him why? He said me I'm annoyed and he blamed me but I never make mistakes..I begged him stay but he blamed me 😞 after he unfollowed me but I don't know what is the reason..but I talked and shared because I love him deeply I can't separate after one day he blocked me ..my heart broken that day and I try to contact him but he online seen not reply..my head and my heart very hurt..I remember his memories..I know he is the wrong person but my heart doesn't hear it ...😭😭 Please give me advices..I want to heal now..