I'm disgusting
Everyone thinks I'm a disgusting monster, because I am.
On sight, no matter what I do Ican feel their primal instincts telling them to get away, burry me deep in a pit, or be mean until they run me off. I'm an insufferable being even if I'm sitting quietly in a corner trying to not exist for everyone.
I'm like an anti-person, selfishly taking up space where someone could be, while being nothing.
I am so sorry that you are struggling with all of those horrible thoughts. That must be really tough.
What makes you so certain that "everyone" believes that about you? @HonestTree153
@HonestTree153
This makes a lot of sense to me, I even made a post similar to this lately.
We've got to challenge this kind of thinking though, and it's hard. Especially if you have evidence or proof of certain people feeling that way about you.
But honestly, why are you internalizing those things about yourself? That might be the bigger aspect at hand.
It would be easier if it was only certain people. But it's everyone, my family, and all the people I interact with day to day. Because I'm so anxious and awkward just by existing with in their scope of awareness I'm peeving them off, even the kind and understanding ones.
I don't have a single person in my life that likes having me around, and it's agony.
@HonestTree153
Maybe you just need to get it out of your head a little more. I dunno... I feel like I'd worry about this all the time if I weren't so focused on stuff that I'm doing instead. That's the best advice I have I think.
The honest truth is that they probably aren't nearly as put off by you as you feel. Maybe some of them, and that can hurt, but try to stay strong and confident. Even as I'm saying that, I'm reminding myself to as well.
I would agree with this advice entirely. I bet that people like you a lot more than your brain is letting you believe. Start by figuring out how to like you for you. How do you take care of yourself? @Torean
@bestVase7265
Usually stuff like exercise, video games, time with friends.
Tonight I have some sleepytime tea, cooked chayote with red pepper, a dog to cuddle with, and listening to some true scary stories to relax. 😅 I don't know what it says about me that horror-type stuff relaxes me.
Those are all awesome things! It says nothing about you that horror relaxes you. We are all relaxed by different things.
I hope that you had a good day with lots of stuff that you enjoy. @Torean