I miss her
Recently my best friend and I’s friendship ended over the fact that I had told her about how I felt as if she wasn’t putting effort into our friendship, while I was putting my heart and soul into it. She told me how she stopped reaching out because I always left her on read or delivered, which I know I had never done. I would always respond quickly to her, if anything I was always so excited to talk to her. I was always texting her about dumb stuff and asking her if she wants to hangout (which she would always make a reason not to) And that isn’t some pitiful, “I’m the victim not you!” But I genuinely failed to see how I am the one at fault? If she had truly felt this way, talk to me about it. That’s what friends do, communicate. It makes me disappointed. I should be mature, tell myself she wasn’t a good friend and forget about her. But she was my only friend, my first choice, my favorite person. But now I understand I was never hers, and that hurts.
@raspberryEast5950 Maybe she wasn't a good friend but you were, you put efforts in maintaining your friendship with her and to see it still fail is disappointing and upsetting.
Being hurt about the end of something that mattered so much to you, being sad about the loss of a special friendship cannot be labelled as being immature<3 You are very mature in the way you wanted to handle it all. It's okay to grieve this loss, you're allowed to question what went wrong.
I really hope you find friendships where you are respected and appreciated just as much<3
Thank you for the kind response, it definitely is very disappointing. I actually got her a gift for Christmas today, and I would have kept it, only it’s a picture of her deceased dog on a keychain so it would be a bit strange if I did. I’ve been avoiding it though, it would hurt to go over there and give it to her. I’ll probably drop it off at her doorstep later today. Can’t say I’m not surprised she didn’t get me anything, I knew she wouldn’t, so that doesn’t upset me. Thank you again for letting me know I’m not insane for feeling this way, it really helped more than you could imagine.
@raspberryEast5950 aw that's such a thoughtful gift<3 I'm so sure that you'll find meaningful friendships cause you've got a beautiful heart<3
Here's a cute bunny for you *-* it'll keep you company and eat all the veggies :D Also it comes with all the pink flowers as well. I hope the new year is full of beauty and sweet surprises for you.
