I’m just lost right now..
sometimes i feel like happiness wasn’t meant for me. Like my days would be going so well, i’ll be feeling all happy and jazzes up and then all of a sudden something goes horribly wrong. It’s like I can’t catch a break. The worst part of it all is that sometimes it’s the seemingly smallest things that have the greatest effects on people.
i wonder is there something actually wrong with me?
why did i binge eat today again?
why did i yell so much today?
why did i say those hurtful words?
why am i such a horrible person?
why do i feel so unloved and invalidated even though there are people around me who say they love me everyday
why can’t i get it together
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
why do i keep falling into this same cycle over and over and then continuously hate myself to the point where sometimes I literally want to just strangle myself.
this is my first time venting, i’m not sure how this is supposed to work, please be gentle and mindful.
@oreojunkie1234
As rants go... good job.
perhaps your revolving issue is because you ask those questions.... really treating yourself better is key to looking at things differently ... have a day where you binged perhaps yelled or said something you maybe should not have. OK the next day is a brand new slate and that is what you can work on you cannot change the past.
I know when i feel good about me with all my flaws .... let go of any missteps things go much better