I‘m so tired….. What are you tired of?
I‘m tired of feeling sad or numb. I‘m tired of worrying. I‘m tired of never being consistent. I‘m tired of doubting. At the same time we all don’t give up. Which should make us proud..
@lov3lac3
i feel the same way. i’m tired of being sad and numb. i’m tired of my mood changes and how i trick myself thinking im better when i feel a small pinch of happiness when i know it never gets better. when im never happy. im tired of never being happy. i’m so very tired.
@pluckyCoconut4376 be proud of yourself how you handle everything. U still writin and giving your best. thats more than enough. and in the right time your power will come back, even now, every second a lil piece will come back. i wish you a lot of small and big wonders and a beautiful time…
thank you so much you’re so sweet. i wish all the best for you too
@lov3lac3
I used to be more sad than I am now though I’m still sad at times, just less times now compared to before. I used to doubt myself all the time. But now I stopped that once I realized I survived all the bad times in my life and never gave up and now I keep telling myself I’m proud of myself for that.
What I’m tired of is how no one acknowledges or credits me, how I’m always not appreciated, respected, valued, how no one has any faith in me and is always negative about me despite everything I said above. Do I need credit or validation or whatever from others? No. But it doesn’t hurt to be positive about me instead of being negative about me.
this touches me a lot cuz five minutes ago i cried about almost the same. i’m so empathetic, always trying my best for my beloved ones. and i’m here carrying everything alone, when i’m sad they leave me the most alone. even my closest persons. i kinda think it’s nothing personal, probably the “physics” or laws of life.
but then i think, i read your words, i don’t know you, and even I am proud of your progress, your reflection…. i hope you feel seen… even when no one is watching. maybe that’s our challenge to set boundaries and give ourselves what we need… and have the faith in you and remember… every love you give, you will receive by a way you can’t imagine ✨
@lov3lac3
Yeah I’m empathetic too. No matter what the situation is, no matter how much help or anything someone needs, no matter whether I just woke up, it won’t even matter what my current relationship status is if I even have a relationship with that person, I’d help them regardless of anything bc I’m too empathetic. I always put my own problems on hold to help others when they need it. It doesn’t mean I don’t help or prioritize myself. I definitely do. But when I feel others need help I put my own problems on hold and help them and when that’s finished I go back to working on solving my problems. So I’ve been carrying everything by myself for the longest time, no support, no understanding, just judgment from others.
So understanding that I’m so sorry for you and that you’re carrying everything alone, and others leave when you’re sad which is sad bc that’s one of the times when they should be there for you. But that’s how I feel about it based on my experiences when no one was there for me when I needed them yet always wanted/expected me to be there for them.
Despite not knowing you, which can change by the way if you’d like and are open or interested in us getting to know each other more, I am very proud of you too for everything you’ve done. The main purpose for me posting a comment on this thread was to let you know that you’re not alone and there are people who understand you and your situation and will listen to you. I appreciate your hope that I’m seen however the unfortunate reality is that I’m not seen, at least not in the way I rightfully should be seen and my boundaries are always violated by others bc they don’t respect, value, etc me enough to not violate my boundaries.
So yes I agree with you on giving ourselves what we need and I’m gonna add what we deserve and have earned and should have, and have faith in ourselves whether anyone else has it in us or not. Upon realizing this I’ve begun to give myself these things and hope you have too.
Thank you for everything you said in your response comment. All of it was very touching and heartfelt for me. Thank you for creating this thread too.
