I'm so tired right now
I'm exhausted and drained from today and I can't even vent properly. Like what the *** is even wrong with me, I can't even properly form my thoughts into words right now. Or ever. My brain refuses to work when I want it to and I hate it. I hate everything and I just want everything to be better. My friends never stay, and the ones who stay longer than the rest I get so clingy to that whenever I see them with someone else, I'm terrified they're going to leave me for them. I hate how jealous I get. I'm not trying to be toxic and I don't want to be, but I can't stop being clingy, and my separation anxiety just gets worse and worse and worse. I don't know what I'm doing with my life and I'm so tired.
@Kalixtragram gives you a giant tiny hug ❤squeezes you tightly. I have depression and anxiety too. It's hard very hard. Do you get professional help? Like meds, or people to talk to? There are lots of nice people who understand and want to support you here. We also have a depression. And anxiety chat room. Where you can talk to others going through the same stuff.gives you another hug
@Tinywhisper11 i wont hug them but go for it (im not a big hugger)
@Bazzust0 I like giving virtual hugs ❤❤😁
@Tinywhisper11
Thank you omg <3 I just saw this, sorry-
No, my family doesn't believe in mental health and refuses to let me get help or meds or anything, which is why I came here (secretly) because I feel like a bottle of soda that got shaken up too much and is waiting to explode arghh
Thank you for the hugs too you don't know how much those mean to me soeihfs- <3
@Kalixtragram awww sweetie. There's still a lot of people who dont believe, or don't wanna believe in mental health😞 I hope you get the support you need here. Gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤ just having a place like this to vent can really help. We understand you here. Hugs you again ❤
@Tinywhisper11
The genuine joy I felt when you called me sweetie soiehfesih- I almost teared up and I'm not even joking, you're such a caring person and so wholesome omg- hugsss <3
And I agree, somewhere you can vent freely is really lifesaving imo, I'm already starting to feel so much more heard than in other places omg you have no idea, and you're helping a lot too like seriously ahh-
But yeah, unfortunately a lot of religious people don't believe in mental health, and it really hurts those who need help the most :/
@Kalixtragram yeah I get it. I grew up with christians, that went way over board with religion. I don't class myself as anything now, although I do believe in God and angels. I really hope oneday you'll be able to get the right help.And dw sweetie for now you got us. Your cups family ❤❤ who love you and will always be there for you ❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤❤
@Kalixtragram
(deppression here) i have been depressed for almost 3 years (i think) dont know too much abt anxiety but what can help is MUSIC many genres are needed. but that just helps to get out of it you must fight it every step of the way. fight the earge to cling. fight the earge to let deppresion it already won with me dont let it win you too.@Tinywhisper11 (deppression here) i have been depressed for almost 3 years (i think) dont know too much abt anxiety but what can help is MUSIC many genres are needed. but that just helps to get out of it you must fight it every step of the way. fight the earge to cling. fight the earge to let deppresion it already won with me dont let it win you too.
@Bazzust0 😁 yep! Music really helps me too ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
so why do you hang out in the forms
@Bazzust0 I normally hang out in the group chat rooms😁 but I spend an hour or so a day trying to support people on forum threads. I'm not a listener, or anything. And with my health. I wouldn't be a very reliable listener. But I like to help others. What about you?
@Bazzust0
I don't get to listen to a lot of music unattended sadly, my christian family refuses to let me use spotify or other music apps because there's 'bad music and ads' and stuff, so all I have is a few christian CDs which are largely ineffective since I've grown to hate christianity and anything related to it due to very strict christian school/church rules and stuff, but thank you for the recommendation! I'll see what i can do haha
@Kalixtragram 
@blitheComfort6759
Aww thank youuuu <3
@Kalixtragram
Your pfp looks awesome! I looked at your bio and it says you drew it, that's epic :) maybe you could draw something
@linvi
Omg ty!! I'm a self-taught artist of like 9 months last I checked haha, I'm glad you like it! :D
And sometimes drawing works, but other times I just have no motivation to do anything, it just really depends on mood/emotionalness at that time, but thanks for the suggestion! Drawing is definitely calming <3 (when I'm not trying to pick apart anatomy oishefhis-)
@Kalixtragram
Oh maybe doodling then! Motivation is def hard but drawing a bunch of stars or flowers makes me really happy even on a low motivation day, maybe you'd like it :) and ofc! I'm glad you're here
@linvi
Ohh, maybe actually, I never tried that- I was always trying to draw things above my level haha that might be why I struggle with motivation- thank you so much!! :D
It can get really, really tiring. One of the main things that you recognize is not thinking clearly. I am so sorry that you are suffering.
Are you working with any doctors or therapists? @Kalixtragram
@bestVase7265
I don't have access to anyone like that unfortunately. My parents dont allow it/can't afford it and I can't either. That's one of the reasons why I'm here, haha. Because I can't afford therapy or anything
That is so unfortunate. But it is unfortunate for now and maybe not for later. Eventually you can hopefully live elsewhere.
But feel free to come here and vent any time. We aren't perfect but we are supportive. If you add to this thread, I will comment every night.
How was your day today? @Kalixtragram
