I need help.
Hello, not quite sure if anyone will interact with this, but I just need to get this out there. I dont know what to do anymore.
Im 16, turning 17 soon and I feel miserable. For as long as I can remember, I've been feeling this way. With some periods of time being better, some worse, but all in all, I haven't been alright in years.
Since I was around ten everything started going downhill, I would describe it as the time I had finally opened my eyes. I noticed things I hadn't before, that my family wasn't as perfect as I believed.
Then it got worse, I experienced csa from two family members and ended up growing a strong sense of self-hatred. It stopped when I was around 12 I believe, but it left me scarred. My parents didn't know for a while, but eventually they found out, nothing much changed though. I was partially blamed for not speaking up and didn't get the help I needed, I was extremely upset. I got depressed, suicidal and never got to see professionals, I didn't talk about the way I felt because it never got me anywhere. I had multiple attempts and still didn't get professional help.
Here's the thing, now, I just pretend I'm okay. It's better than what was happening before but it's tiring me out so much. I still have thoughts about death, sh and other things, I am constantly exhausted and don't feel like doing anything. I truly don't know what my future holds, I still need to live here for a while and it's driving me crazy, even if there's nothing major going on anymore. I can't bring myself to work because I barely get what I already have to do done but eventually I have to work. I have to do something at one point.
Among all of this, I have plenty of other struggles as well, which makes this all the more difficult, but this is the thing destroying me most.
How tf do I deal with all of this?? I haven't given up yet, I want to, but I can't. Though I also can't keep living like this for years to go.
@peachSkies4401 Hello, I am sorry about what you have been going through and I hope that you will be okay soon. You did a wonderful job coming on and posting about this and asking for help is a good way to be okay soon. If you ever want to talk, you are welcome to message me. 🤗
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I hear your pain. You are worthy of getting help. It is very unfortunate that many environments don't provide what is fair. I am really glad that you are taking steps to change what your situation is.Â
Here at 7 cups you can get free help. Therapy is paid but chats with listeners and forum posts are free.Â
I have the feeling finding a good listener could be valuable. If you join chat list you can try random available person. Since your seems delicate, it might be easier to try someone you choose by reading their bio or who responds to your forum posts. And there are some amazing listeners out there. Please, if the first one does not work, try few more.
I can only offer replying here, since I am not approved for teen chats. I can tell you I know what feeling hopeless does. I have seen in myself what it took to change my depressed mindset. I think it needs other people. You need to survive long enough to connect with the right ones.Â
Would you like to share something about the person you are? Do you like some kind of books? Music? What are things that you value in others?
@peachSkies4401 hey 💙 you deserve so much better
I wish I had some answers 💙 all I can offer is listening, I'm here if you need someone in your corner
Please don't give up 💙
You'll do it, do it not just because you want to, do it cause you can! Don't give up, life has given you this challenge, complete it, after climbing a mountain a beautiful scenery comes but it still is dangerous uphill and downhill, be careful, do what you can when you can, if people can't make you happy, you make yourself happy, you'll appear crazy, but you'll be happy! Love you!
Don't give up, you have what it takes! :3
Hii
Honestly I feel you... I've been going through similar stuff.. would love to talk if you're willing.. : )
Hii
Honestly I feel you... I've been going through similar stuff.. would love to talk if you're willing.. : )